Life

Life is an Adventure ... Dare it
Life is a Beauty ... Praise it
Life is a Challenge ... Meet it
Life is a Duty ... Perform it
Life is a Love ... Enjoy it
Life is a Tragedy ... Face it
Life is a Struggle ... Fight it
Life is a Promise ... Fulfill it
Life is a Game ... Play it
Life is a Gift ... Accept it
Life is a Journey ... Complete it
Life is a Mystery ... Unfold it
Life is a Goal ... Achieve it
Life is an Opportunity ... Take it
Life is a Puzzle ... Solve it
Life is a Song ... Sing it
Life is a Sorrow ... Overcome it
Life is a Spirit ... Realize it

e.x.a.m... sigh~~

everyone must have this kinda feeling before..

what the hell... EXAM!!!!

no one would say, I LOVE EXAM =)

instead

ghhrrrr...... I HATE EXAM!!

remember when we were in kinder, mummy would yelled at us telling there is exam 2mr

we likely will responded back

"ma, what is exam"

when we moving in to standard 1, standard 2

we started to understand..

what exam is..

ngmmm... likewise...

you will get candy if you scribbled well on a piece of paper =)

OR

you will get a "rotan", if your luck is missed by 50%

when we grown up..

exam kept haunting us

we must do well in UPSR in order to scrub in a well-known SEKOLAH MENENGAH KEBANGSAAN

(whoopsss, sorry i was educated in malay school)

.... sigh....

we must do well in SPM, or STPM in order to FIGHT for a place in LOCAL UNI

the process repeating again and again..

until, we surrendered

we screwed our paper

we screwed everything

because

we know that there is no cane or no bail if we failed our paper

ended up, we went for private uni

we felt ashamed this time

and

we start to study hard, study smart

year 1, we scored well

year 2, results dropped due to temptation from outside world

year 3, who cares~

year 4, oh my god, is time to push myself harder

is only a year to get my cert i hand..

and now

the time is less than 24 hours for my last paper

i'm still sticking my butts and hands to my laptop

to crap for my exam..

sigh~~~

well, just hope everyone could did well for all the papers

tilt up our head and walk into the hall of fame PROUDLY

though we still have one more semester to bear about

but

still i cross my fingers

for the previous papersss

which is damn teruk

sigh~~

sigh~~

sigh~~

stop..!!

you should start studying now!!!

bye guys....!!!

all the best for cp^^

63^^

what so special about 63??? hmmm.. let me explain to u...

why 63??? cuz.. i wan

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63 seconds in a count
63 minutes in an hour
63 hours in a day
63 days for the next paper
or...
shot down 63 lectures in a day!! phewww... tats overall man!!
if doesn't work!! how about....
63 eyes
63 brain
63 hands
63 legs
or
63 mouth
you would like to ask me SHUT UP then
perhaps....
63 pairs of new sandals, new bags, new baju~~
63 bla and bla and bla~~
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feel like want to slap me??
63 gold bricks
oh no~~
or
63 white gold bricks
nope.. you are wrong..
women preferr DIAMONDS~~
63 diamonds,
... ruby
.... sapphires
.... emeralds
.... pearlssSSS
OH NO...!!! you wouldn't understand all these craps...
but.. you know what's 63 stands for =)

lost. in. wonderland.

where where where??
where are you?
i couldn't get you, through out the days and nights..
been searching, for quite some time..
i'm lethargic =(
where have you been?
how have you been?
the place ain't small..
the time ain't short..
for how long still..
the game
of
hide and seek?
a message
for u
u
u
the only U
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i need you =)

FARM FARM

Gud morning peeps=) seems like i'm coming back to world of blogging.. hiakhiak~ what actually i were busy for recently? hectic semester ahead.. clinical attachment (Ms Tang which is ultimately 'adorable'), loaded with assignmentSsss & presentation, exam exam exam~ it will never ends.. whoopsss, it's my second last finals, i'm gonna grad soon..!!! oh yea, my daily routine is likely waking up early morning (i'm a gud student har), or maybe middle of the nite (you must be thinking that i'm psycho, for being soooooooo hardworking)... brush up myself, sitting in front my laptop likewise what i'm doing now, nope blogging but to... CHECK MY FARM!! hah~ yes! i'm psycho but hectic class and notes drive me crazy at times.. i'm addicted to facebook game, a KIDO games.. haha.. oh yea, its time to check my farm, the daisy is ready for me to harvest.. chao guyss... have a nice week-day ahead!!!

question or answer?

specially dedicated for my dear dear dearly~~

dearest number 1: splendid life with a k-'bf', is it so called perfect or to fill the emptiness??

dearest number 2: caring or loving?? companion or life-long??

dearest number 3: chat or sleep?? joys or sorrows??

hide & seek

i'm gonna hide.. hide.. and hide..... again~

jus wana tell..

i'm a ordinary girl, with extraordinar.......

de...

something~~

dissolved. path.

hello~~~ hello~~~ anyone at home??? huh????

you are back.. here =) welcome friend!!!!

walking back to the path taken, what i saw is... dried leaves and footprints.. memories memories~~ that we had, jolly and sorrows that swept as time fly, love and hatred that buried underneath each of my breathing.. what i wish for is not i want, what i want now is what im looking forward.. i am fine, at last... regrets mingling around, and yet i keep on lying to myself, "yes, remaining.. still" what the hell?? gimme a damn please..

is that the road not taken?? nope.. i'm smiling, you are here.. back again.. but not for me, not for yourself, but for nobody..

fall. ___

apparently... i missss....

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this =)


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more precisely....

ini =p

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hospital's food ain't sux... :p

happy studying

yeah yeah~~ finally gonna say gudbye to the 2weeks of suffers=) its gonna end in another 19hours more...!!! happy happy~~~ i'm gonna back to my home sweet home, hug my cute cute doogies, kiss my lovely parents..!! whoopssyy~~ hehe... go study natasha..!!! study hard for a better 2mr, clinical pharmacy only wat, who cares? lol.. happy studying~~ muaxx!!!

it is... apa?

tak ape tak ape... doesnt matter seriously not a big deal...!!!! don't have to think much... go sleepp....!!!! arrgghhh... ada ape ada ape... is a serious matter!!!! i gotta meditate for whole night...!!! rodent is rodent, pig is pig, human is human.. you cant change it, i cant change it too =)

e.x.a.m.

ghhhrrrrrrrr...........
i HATE EXAM!!! more holiday pls!!!!!!

stop begging me!!

i wan cakap banyak banyak now!!!! it always happened, why why why???????? after holiday => EXAM.. ghhhrrrr.... can't have a peaceful sleep instead of waking up every 2hours to check out what's the time and urged myself to get up before is getting late to start study.. sobsob.. hate this semester to the extend (i hate almost every semester i guess).. is quite lagging + boring.. first paper over, geriatrics! mirza abeng n sam thamby are killer!! there is so much to write yet the time is very limited!! drug modelling next.. no mood to study because i know that nazek ali will never gives good marks =(

haha.. haha.. the hamster is standing and looking at me from the cage.. so cute of him.. he must be begging me to let him out.. hmmm. shall i?? he bites off 3cabels within 3days thus he has been caged the 3days onwards.. hah~~

<.............> still i've no heart to see him like this.. i set him free but must watch out his movement every seconds!! i need the connection still!!! he is now running here there with the fat ass.. nope.. is his balls swinging here and there.. can u imagine that.. hiakhiak~~

hmmph... why am i so scared of you?? can walk out from my life completely?? is gonna be over completely after a week more~~ but i'm scared!! kenapa?? aikss.. you think too much, you want . to be happy and . too!! but are you happy?? yes i am!! i do concerned about the past and future too..!! cakap banyak go sleep la!!

i just woke up=( after the med but still i feel drowsy and sleepy~~ drug modelling drug modelling~~ can i take all down in a night?? battle started!!! chao dear dearest~~

he is back in the cage!! i caught him start bitting my cabel again~~ haiz.. nitez readers!!

tsunami tsunami

earthquake triggers tsunami in samao~~ that's how we started the topic last night.. it's unpredictable or the residents never aware of this huh?? i gave hints few times, its gonna happen, faster grasp the chance before there is no turning back, yet you failed.. is fate, or is a failure huh?? sigh~~ i see the regrets in you, and end of her suffering too.. what i can say is, she is happy right now, and all of us knew this.. if given a chance, will the story change? perhaps, who knows?? be positive, this is life, and it gotta goes on with barriers and sorrows.. likewise i always say, failure gotta leads your life towards victory.. learned from the past and BE STRONG~

but dude, i preferred tornado, not tsunami=)

i need midazolam =)

i can see stars twinkling twinkling high right upon my head~~ pheww.. not tired not sleepy, as usual stick my butt on the chair and start playing fb games.. "SPOT THE DIFFERENCE".. thot i'm very cekap in this, but i managed to spot only 3 out of 5.. the sheeps all looks the same only.. after seeing them, i see stars =)


well well well.. i started to play farm too.. but the 3-D farm make me more headache~~ can suggest me some easy game, huh?? like waka waka, crazy taxi, bejewel, plock.. went sunway for movie this afternoon, gamer.. remind me of the first time i played half life with raymond, i've gun in my hand but he killed me, with a knife in his hand.. swt~ he is my sifu for half life, but until now the 'tu di' failed to master the skills in half life.. LOL

i'm leaving to pangkor 2mr, 5more hours to start my journey, more precise to say is ipoh trip.. cuz most of the time we will be spending our time in ipoh~ dimsum, callie castle, temple etc~~ kinda excited~ maybe the adrenaline keeps me awake through out the whole night.... will upload more pictures soon=)

stop crapping~ go sleep natasha=) gudnitez reader.. i talked too much.. LOL..!!

tak puas hati!!!

talk to meee... ghhrrr... i need to let off my discontentment, which i dunno what is it about, but i understand what it is about!! hmmm, shall i make it private blog again???

HELL NO!!!!

alright, this is my space, it belongs to me=) firstly, i'm happy right now~~~ i guess i'd mess up the situation, is getting worst between both of us but still i wish to tell you that, i appreciate you and everything you'd done before=) just being happy go lucky as you are~~ remember, i am here i am here ><

second, i wish to give a damn if i could (PCJ taught me this)... oh gosh it's rough, but... DON"T PET ANIMALS IF YOU ARE NOT GONNA CLEAN THE HOUSE.. if it happened once, still i can accept it, but............ dua kali, tiga kali, empat kali, lima kali.... until when people reached back home after last day of final exam, the people supposedly should be celebrating, shout out loud, jumping up and down.. BUT... the exciment went off when she saw the pizza piece scattered on the floor leaving the oily mark on the spot (of curi makan).. duhh~ can you try to understand me?? mop the whole house for the sake of oily marks!!!!! ghhrrr~ sorry but i have to tell this..

third, boring semester.. boring subjects and boring lecturers.. i wan graduate fast.. do AIMST provide RAPID facilities? i do appreciate things when stepping in last year of the degree but feelings changes esp when you don't feel like going for classes, you'll think that it's such a waste of time, the slides are nuisance, lecturers are annoying etc etc. HATE this semester to the max, time flies but we had nothing at the end..

lastly, hate myself being so indecisive~ how how how?? yes or no?? this or that?? please either gift me a dice or take out my brain.. it works?? maybe~~

whoopsss... last but not least.. hate myself being SO EMO..!!!! i am a grown up child, can no longer be so sensitive and emotional... pls pls pls...haha.. but i love it, at least i gain something new after i being emo, whether is good thing or bad thing, still i love to be such a EMO-QUEEN=)

PMS over = normal

i've billions things to blog about~
i've bundles of feeling which to share...
i can't write it here..
but.. to show off here..
^^

normal weekend
but great treasure...!!
i'm fine, and you too..
thanks..
for the M.U.
for the T.
for the C.
for everything i want
you fulfilled my request
perhaps..
not for the period of time
but
is life long
(this gal is asking for much.. isshhhhh)
muaxmuaxmuax

You belong with me- Taylor Swift

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me

how to make myself and you better huh??

跌倒了， 就从新站起来。。 不要因为一次又一次的伤害，而把自己封闭。。！！ 人生不如意的事，多的数不清。。跌倒的人所需要做的事，就好像每天大便一样，用力的把它拉出来。。放开了，是一种解脱。。大不出， 放不下， 解不开，都是你的问题。。好比蔬菜吃不多，水喝不多，笑不多， 运动不多。。解铃人还需系铃人。。劝告我们听得多，给的也多，可是能进得了我们心的, 又有多少呢?? 所以说，要不要大便，能不能大便， 也是靠我们自个儿， 如果我们还是不吃蔬菜水果，不用力量挤出来，认为把粪藏在大肠是很舒服的事，对不起。。我帮不了你了。。！！！ 总该不能要我把手放进你的肛门，挖出来吧？？朋友，我的 dear dear。。 我或许讲的都很废，你开心就好。。。 为什么？？每每不开心时，都是咱三人呢？？我的粪，尽量的排出来，用的是laxative，比较快！！！你们呢？？快点吧~~ 不要再拖下去了， 时间不等人~~

好好想，有什么事是比大完便还要舒服的呢？

=)

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)

The Bottom Line

Somewhere between totally self-centered and completely selfless is a happy medium.

In Detail

You know, someone (and you know exactly who it is) used to do a lot of nice things for you, but what have they done for you lately? If it takes you more than five minutes to think of the last time the thought of you-know-who brought you a genuine moment of pleasure, perhaps it's time to rethink your relationship. Is this a situation that can be changed? Is it one you even want to change? All these are very good questions. Start thinking.

qiao qiao

xiao qiao

R.I.P.

thank you speech

thanks to Mrs. D and Ms. O which loves LV so much, i had a great great time with you guys=) peace of mind, and the tropical smell~~ pls not the combination of fns.. yuckkss.. no one will had it, i swear=) sorry for not turning up for 2mr's trip, i would have rejected her if i knew it earlier that you guys going also.. gomenasai..!!!

thanks to unknown M (not Mirza), for teaching me TKS.. which i used it alot on that "SBFMAH", by the way.. "qiao" and "hiao" is different thing =)

thanks to Mrs. K, for supporting me all the while, finally i joined you, we are on the same boat=) gambateh~

xxx??

i'm like others..
no difference..
what i want is...
"xxxx"
n
"xxxxxxx"
n
"xxxxxxx"

GHHRRRRR...!!!!

she's gone, forever

another 3 hours break.. had my lunch, squatting on the toilet bowl, reading the book "who am i".. my mind was blank, out of sudden.. the last night, i breath in cold, shivered all over the night, cried until i fall sleep.. grey's, and qiao qiao's death~~ phewww.. i gained a lesson, through out the weekend..

there is somebody walks out from your life everyday.. with no signs and any symptoms showing that he/she is leaving.. appreciate the person and tell he/she that you love them.. they are your life.. did you say it?? ever before??

"to love each other even we hate each other, no running nobody walks out no matter what happen.. to take care of each other even when we old, smelly and senile.. and even when i get alzheimer and i forget you.. i will remind you, who i am, everyday.. this is forever..."

people see me as emo person, but i wana tell.. i'm just.. overwhelm=)

oxygen. breath. love

Manfye: oxygen is more important than love

Nat: oxygen doesnt works if you refuse to breath

OCC: both are equally important.........!!!

swt~~ kan i said, to live is to breath, yet you must initiate breathing then only oxygen wil goes in.. remember, you are breathing and stop breathing not necessary due to love too.. she said, people comitting suicide or put to sleep are because they dont feel the love exist in them.. i said, i can kil myself because i have no money i'm starving else im suffering from chronic disease too.. i end my life not because of im not getting love, there are millions of reason i can stop my heart from beating.. NOT LOVE.. she replied, i love money tats why i need it, noone loves the ill me thus i kill myself.. in short, LOVE MADE LIFE... LOLZ~ as what i know, making love makes babies.. generation and population.. haha.. alritez, they will judge everything.. i'm not threatening you since you born to be bond with ton of LOVES, kan?? fine.. stand out and support me please.. do confront this girl!!! she is OCC aka bloody sleepy bitch=)

i need a reason for this~ sigh!!

dearly

i've been keeping this post.. long time back
i'm sorry for not telling or sharing my feeling with you
never expect all these on me
thought i could be better
i try to cope myself
still is beyond my limitation
eventually
is worsen now...

you spoiled my day. my mood. my thoughts.
torturing me. mentally. psychologically. physically
making my days upside down
i was emo through out the day
nope.. is EVERYDAY
i locked myself in the room
meditating for the sake of
a solution...
that best fit for ME
to
sort ME out
from
this suffering life
i believe that, i could live better..
without your present

dear oh dear
why you have to do it in this way
are you that happy seeing me fall in affliction
huh???
that's my life...!!!!!! you made it miserable~~
i'm disintegrated....
ouucchhh
i can feel the pain, do you??
WHYYY??
why all these happened on me??
are you happy now? tell me....!!!
aarrrgghhhhh~~

GOD please..

S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P
S.T.O.P
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.

making me.....
MISSing HIM tat much~~~ hahahaa

sorry for the late
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARLY
my cake is not a failure.. as they all said is nice, nope is superb delicious!!!
is a master's level piece of work!!!
i'm proud of myself=)
haha..

oh yea~~
another confession from myself
= i believed that, you'd have a better life, with the present of ME =
woowwww... perasannya..

nyahnyah~~ goin back home now..
enjoy the outing with them on this Sunday
faster clean your room and do more exercise
oh yea~ study hard too!!!
between
100 bts for a ciggy, no compensation no negotiation for this!!!
blekkk~~

i'm in 4th year!!!

short update for my 3weeks holiday and first week back in AIMST.. hey guys, THANK GOD i'm in 4th year, final year and final lap for me~~

holiday was bored=( act as a gud girl stayed at home for the first week, heading to KL during the second week for my shopping spree.. shocking news i got from tsu yin, not regarding the sales, but.. but... ahem, YUFEI, my fren spent 500 for a week trip in sarawak.. fan xing la pls!! OCC u too!! stop laughing there.. 3rd week was jailed at home, having flu sore throat over the weekend (careful, i MITE be a carrier).. and went for small eye op.. kindly for my dearest readers information, the op is to remove out the big buldge which been following me years back.. it was all out of sudden plan and oucchhhh.. damn painful..!!

cis this gal, still can nicely posing after the op

the buldge is gone=)

POH AGRO TRADING=)
eh chia jin ur father quite famous huh?

cute puppy in dog saloon

does it looks familiar to you guys?
esp my batchmates ??

yaya, i bought that baju for him..
dun jealous k? =)

first day for clinical attachment
zul's hairstyle.. nyahnyah~~

another arrogant puppy at hawker stalls =)

how i wonder what you are

i pray for rainbow after rain..

the sky is dull
God please sweep away the clouds
human needs moonlight to torch the path
in darkness..
and stars which hanging up high in the sky
twinkle twinkle bright

i gazed over the night
and yet...
the moon is missing

i blame myself for the stupidity
gomenasai~~

you owed me a song!!!

you are special to me, because.......=)

thanks for coming back to me.. time really flies.. we used to talk about graduation, work, studies, future. even gossiping.. now is time for you to leave me, everyone and everything... you taught me a lot, seriously a lot in 3 years.. the way you handle activities, attitudes when be with others, when Dr.Raj leaving, or your curriculum, perceptions towards life.. haha.. the theory of "life".. funny yet is true!!

as time clicking towards the end,hardly for me to recall back what we had in 3 years.. i tried to keep those memories, stuffed in my forgetful brain, thanks God little is surviving still.. hmmph.. thousand of words i wish to say, but i conclude it fast since is a opened blog=) you could blame me where i chuck the previous one, frankly i deleted it, few weeks back~~

"butterflies dunno what colour of their flying wings are, but human eyes know how nice it is.. likewise you dunno how nice you are, but i know how special you are to me..!!"

please never bother how people look at you, it was merely a mistake (shit, it wasn't) since i stepped in AIMST in the first year... i'm not gonna say sorry to you, because.. i'm forgiven=) we shall meet each other still, if we've got the chance>< adios to the one, you know who you are~~

Bibi..!!

today's menu~ =.=

BiBi=)

yuckkss... dun~~

i'm the king~~!!

sleepy sleepy@@

*shy*

radix works!!!

day before applied therapeutics exam!!

i had


lunch: radix iced coffee + mexican bun + tou fu fa


dinner: radix iced coffee + pizza =)

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self induced insomnia.. means sendiri cari pasal punya insomia =)
sleepless night.... radix coffee works!! but i need at least 2 hours sleep before exam lar~
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my pee smells like coffee~~

oh gosh i love it!!!

树, 珍惜她吧！！！

今天的话不多， 根本没有心情来应付最后一科。。 该死的老师，把最难得一科排在最尾，sien 啊~~惨了，还有一天多一点！！很想快点结束，可是。。 问题还在，考试后要面对的，更烦~~ 该怎么办呢？麦记，我又想写一些，人鬼都不懂的部落格。。哈哈!!! 心情特糟的。。 还有，另外一个朋友， 很想跟你说，叶子的离去，是树的不挽留，还是风带走她呢？？

wo huai nian de.. 是？

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

pharmaco fever T.T

sei lo~~ not in the mood of studying.. nope, more precise ==> hafaling..!!! its pharmacology~~ flip through all the lectures but just cant pick out one to start memorize.. damn it, another 36 hours more to go.. hell no~~ save me save me save me plssss!!!! ghhrrrr...... shut up! go study~~

whoppsss.. i knew it too!! haha..

一塌糊涂

婕郭，蜗救邪乐意便，韧不香轫，龟不象诡的卟裸个。。水栋的涡灾烁深么，呐韧雄柯伊昨县了。。
哈哈！！

涡岛菂窅地饣鲹么？？前朔，囡嘚油彝葛藤匿嘚轫，揪簿窑匚起趿。。嗑屎汝椁塌簿市涡窈赵德纳伊格荏，仔谮杨斗昊，沃钭醭会给趿败粉饰白得隘。。方爻斡筷殿赵毅格藤涡底轫，龌恨相怼匿朔，沓狠腾沃，颗驶嚄闷病布缋由阶过。。挝盗敌尤南么乂趿马？？

写完了。。=）很高兴！！ Mac, chean, ice你们听得懂我在写啥吗？？

笨蛋话

很想blog一些，人听不懂得人话，鬼也听不懂的鬼话。。因为，很多东西，还是不懂的好。。懂得越多，就越烦恼。。结果，我自己也不懂在说些什么。。只是，很烦。。。！！！考试烦啊~~~ 还有两科，加油吧！！！

i can't wait... can't wait to... CLUBS

fang fang~~ fang fang where are you...!!!

status: meta-stable stage!!!

phewww.. wasted my whole day sleeping, gaming, lepaking XDXD shit, not really in the exam mood... analysis and hosp pham over, okok only i feltT.T but currently in excited state..!! likewise the atom regain energy and started to SPIN.. i'm spinning around now thinking of clubssss... sisterrrr... PENANG!!!! woowww... exam time ~ NATASHA u dreaming keh? bangun..!! whatsoever, is my sister she is my sister!! i sayang her more than my results.. whoopsss, and FUTURE... haha.. phamco, who cares~~ end up i will bring in lecture notes and mug up there.. LOLx

my dear, dearest and dear dearest~ buck up for studies, biochem.. SCARY.. will see you on Friday.. hiakhiak... get my point dude? muahahahahh.. meanwhile, nv ren we will meet yea in KL, dun upset for those useless guy in the world and the fcking bitch.. we love you more than everything=p and fangfang, ur future sister in law missing you muchieeee... don't leave me alone here.. sobsob... lastly mia baby dear, sorry~ i love you more than everything too.. *winks* study smart...!!! miss yea..!!!

1/4 ... to.. 2/4

sien sien sien~~ life sien sien~ exam sien sien~~ ghhrrr... everyone just not in the study mood, it's because it's hosp pham?? hell no.. i will tell you the reason, its ridiculous!!!! everyone just dun bother to study, because... because.... ITS HOSP PHAM PAPER TOMORROW!!! ding ding ding~~ haha.. almost 1oclock, alot to go still.. sobsob~~ pls pls pls take this idiot away from me, i shouldn't called the rep, shouldn't activate the stupid window, see what happened right now??? im hanging half way~ but still i wana blog, still i wana play games, still i wana chat... so what, bro its only hosp pham la..!!! duh~ pergi baca buku la!!!

yeahh yeahh~~ i'm goin back home in a while...!!! i miss my mummy daddy and both the stupid doogiee... i miss my bd=BED!!! and i miss you too=) seriously turn up to be an infinity counting down~~ sobsob...

=回家=

never. ever

extremely disappointed...!!! certain thing i can tolerate with but NEVER.. this time..!!! i had it enough..!! i might be not honest because i never spoke to you before regarding this, how i feel when things happened.. i hope for, not a misunderstanding, but a fight which could garner a better understanding towards each.. obviously, i'm upset here but you never realize~~ i've no trust on you... can't see any until now~ why why why?? LEO!! i just hate Leo..!! i asked for more or was you the one i'm seeking for??

=)

偶尔忙了一整天，抑或浑浑噩噩的过了一整天，回家时经过面包店，看着橱窗上的蛋糕，你突然想起，原来今天是曾经身边那一位的生日。
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嗯。
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Happy Birthday to U

曾经这一天，费尽心思。虽不是自己的，但这一天跟自己的生日一样重要。要穿什么样的衣服，配什么样的鞋子包包；要在那家餐厅吃饭，蛋糕要不要事先放到餐厅厨房里，待会儿礼物要在哪个时间点拿出来，什么时候该给他生日之吻，希望他的生日愿望有你。。。
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费尽心思。
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“啊~” 你感叹。曾经是那么重要的日子，今天却是那么轻易的就度过了。
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曾经那个人对你来说是多重要，
他的生日，现在却只有在恍然间才记得。
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然后，你嘴角浅笑。。。 。
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也许，这就是人生。

happy bday yufei & pt

i wish that you are standing straight in front of me, with both hands open.. no doubts i will run to you, give you thousands cuddles.. i miss you miss you miss you so much~~ though i always say, growing distance makes our heart stronger, but..... you mingling in my mind from time to time~~ isshhh... distraction distraction!!! sigh~~ 3days counting down turn up to be infinity counts.. there is no way out except sitting here and wait patiently for the infinity day turn out to be a blast=) i will hold my "breath", telling myself----H1N1 is spreading in AIMST!!! hell NO~~ 30more minutes for another outing.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY my lovable and adorable ICE(yufei) who eventually melted last night after receivingmy call.. whoopsssyyyyyyy!!! hiakhiak *cunning smile* and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PT CHANG who celebrated her birthday for the first time with her *cough* *cough*.. ahemmm... kind-hearted+competent+capable boyfriend LA.LIM...!! wish both you happy happy together with the boyfriend esp my dearest yufei-ICE...!! may your dreams come true!!! miss yea babe!!!

3, 2, 1... infinity :'(

counting down~~

for infinity~~

sorry.. the number you've dialled, is currently not available=)

where has it gone to? where? where?

oh gosh~~ i shouldn't blog this!!!!

counting down... 1.5~~

hmmphh~

i miss my bds!!!! >.<

counting down... 2.5~~

sweet sweet day 1

whoopsssyyyy...!! a sweet sweet starting for me=)

Good afternoon everyone!!! i shall start studying, but not in the mood~~ been sitting for half an hour, proudly to tell that currently in the 1st page of the lecture note.. GOSH!!! this is ME, MYSELF!! LOLz... tuesday thursday tuesday friday- analysis, hosp pham, pharmacology 3, applied therapeutics!! mia exam time table=) phewww... thank God there are gaps in between each paper.. it doesnt means that i would take things for granted, do i? NO WAY!!!

bad news from jimmy yesterday, H1N1 cases among our batchmates and juniors.. crossing my fingers and hoping that she will get well soon~

oh yea.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAGER!! ice age 3 + pizza + eggs + flour + perfume.. happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to nager, happy birthday to euuuu..!! hehe... many more happy return of the day!!!

alritez, i shall make a move=) study hard and all the best for finalzz... GAMBATEH!!!

counting down... 3~~

miss yea><

CAUTION: hazardous species

ghhrrrr.. mood off mood off...!!! as everything does not get into the way i wish for, extremely pissed with myself!!! trying to get into sleep, yet the super duper hot weather wet myself, my blanket and bed sheet instead!! i'm still sweating with ceiling fan + a stand fan spinning to the max=)

=my page- my space-my territory= was left empty for days, i'm totally blank of idea/words or maybe trying to occupy myself with activities/fb/workload to free my mind from entering a fcking emo blog likewise what is happening, RIGHT NOW!!!! megaqueen experts in emo-ing, kan?? why why why? i can't explain myself.. just....... being EMO... (whoopsss.. PMS) and i can't be selfish.... too....!!!!!

can we be fren?

when i'm about to tell you, you are either busy, not available, wrong timing etc.. but, do i really wanted to tell you all these out??? oh shit, millions of questionnaires in my mind... i rather commit suicide than facing the truth.. ur action speaks, i do believe...!! i really wanted speak to you, i swear..! but you never take any swear from me, onwards... sobsob.. all i can do is "SORRY" for being so mean.. "SORRY" for the ignorance, "SORRY" for hurting you "SORRY" for loving you... do i really deserve that?? do i? hope time will make you become a forgetful person.. forget the past, but not to forget me, k? =)

natasha gone insane

ghhrr~
i need pest control..!!
to kill the lazy worms circulating in my blood stream~~
hosp pharm notez drives me crazy..
whooppss...
is driving me into my dreamland=)
I'm so so so so tense up now..!!
HELP .. HELP.... HELP........
none is here...
i'm drowned :'( :'( :'(
kindly attend my funeral 2mr
>.<

love' the bottom line

The Bottom Line

Go out with some good buddies you haven't seen for a while. You miss them!

In Detail

You're looking toward the future with a happy heart and an optimistic attitude -- and there's really no better way to do it. That's not all that's required, however, and you know that, too. So when it comes time for you to step up and do the right thing -- to put your money where your mouth is -- you'll be more than willing to do it. The good news is that with all that confidence oozing out of every pore, you can't help but be a success.

GudMorning Everyone~~ say cheese=)

2 weeks more~~

finally~ all setting down within a week... pham analysis assignment + applies therapeutics assignment & case studies + research presentation...!!! heading to next week i have pham analysis viva and hp viva.. hours left are just ngam ngam for me to study~~ buck up buck up natasha!!! frankly, we play too much in this semester.. hectic though but is the most enjoyful semester i ever had..!! badminton competition, food fiesta, car wash, mid term exam, food fiesta, practice for sketch and dance, PHAM NITEZ - Evening of A Thousand Memories on 20th June2009 ..!!! the most successful event organized by phamsa, leaded by our batch ppl.. we were just cracked to the maximum on the night itself..!! one semester gone, without realizing the time passing fast... 29 days as stated in her msn.. Adios~~

2 weeks more for finalzz.. staring at the stacks of notez which will never be my motivation to study, instead of Zzzzz.... the new lecturers crapped alot in their notez.. for hosp pham, we have Nazer Ali; analysis, Dr. Ravinchandran; thank GOD for applied.. we have a lovely+dedicated lecturer-Mr.Sam!!! eventhough his notez are compact, but still we love to attend his class.. why why why? ahemm.. he is the bachelor in faculty of pharmacy..!! haha... christopher? haiya... who cares=) will never imagine how's finals paper looks like this time.. it's ok.. it's ok.. enjoy to the fullest and leave no regrets...!! LOLxx

meanwhile, i hope my decision was right this time=) he said, i think alot.. yea, i do.. and you too=) for our future wise, we need to, kan?? dunno dunno~~ this is what i always tell you, i have no idea for those happening around but i shall keep the faith & trust on you=) work it out my bds.. miss yea!!!

Evening of A Thousand Memoriesss

nitez before =( swt~~

make up make up~
this is what we called- ai mei de nv ren.. haha

@ Andaman Ballroom
Park Royal, penang

deco for the table~~
simple but nice...

cutest + handsome boy in AIMST=)
dress up for sketch performance....

70's fever...!!
congrats team member for such a great dance and memorable experience

2camwhore PIG

nat & cute cute MC-Jivan

cake cutting for bday gal&boy
from left: ganesan, kaminy, pris
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
may your dreams come true=)

with seniors~~
from left: may yen, see wooi, yng wen, nat, sokcin, ayu, lydia, seak fang

pham batch 2 rocksss!!!

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？

你们可能相爱过，你们可能也喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。

也许为了出过深造，他没有要你等他。
也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你会投胎吃，对方已不再等待。
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没能在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系，
但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。
男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。
每个人这辈子，心中都会有过这么一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。
一开始你不甘心只做朋友，但久了，突然发现这样最好。
你宁愿这样关心他，总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。
特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。
做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？
你心中的这个特别的朋友。。。。。？是谁呢？

很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句我喜欢你，如果你没有反应，
这一段感情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因此这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。
有些事不是你能预料到的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。
也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友。。。。

adios bangkok~~

sobsob.. we are leaving~~

=) =)

handsome guy.. aiksss...

itu dia~~

the online tools in airport~
kindly refer back my previous post=)

adios bangkok~~

bangkok d4

view from my room

breakfast~ yummy yummy..
esp the yoghurt=)

camwhore.. tsk tsk..

1st destination: floating market..

youngest seller over there=)

1, 2, 3.. say cheese.. dun la so moody..

lunch~~
the chiang mai curry mee yichiban!!

and the desserts.. gosh..!!
v v v delicious...

2nd destination: Wat Phra Kaew (Temple of Emerald Buddha)

Wat Phro=)

The Grand Palaces

3rd destination: Chatuchak weekend market
over 15,00 stalls.. selling pets too

cute shuttle busXDXDXD

dinner place~

tat night was full moon=)
i miss you so much.. haha

here it comes~
night view in bangkok..