i need midazolam =)

i can see stars twinkling twinkling high right upon my head~~ pheww.. not tired not sleepy, as usual stick my butt on the chair and start playing fb games.. "SPOT THE DIFFERENCE".. thot i'm very cekap in this, but i managed to spot only 3 out of 5.. the sheeps all looks the same only.. after seeing them, i see stars =)


well well well.. i started to play farm too.. but the 3-D farm make me more headache~~ can suggest me some easy game, huh?? like waka waka, crazy taxi, bejewel, plock.. went sunway for movie this afternoon, gamer.. remind me of the first time i played half life with raymond, i've gun in my hand but he killed me, with a knife in his hand.. swt~ he is my sifu for half life, but until now the 'tu di' failed to master the skills in half life.. LOL

i'm leaving to pangkor 2mr, 5more hours to start my journey, more precise to say is ipoh trip.. cuz most of the time we will be spending our time in ipoh~ dimsum, callie castle, temple etc~~ kinda excited~ maybe the adrenaline keeps me awake through out the whole night.... will upload more pictures soon=)

stop crapping~ go sleep natasha=) gudnitez reader.. i talked too much.. LOL..!!

tak puas hati!!!

talk to meee... ghhrrr... i need to let off my discontentment, which i dunno what is it about, but i understand what it is about!! hmmm, shall i make it private blog again???

HELL NO!!!!

alright, this is my space, it belongs to me=) firstly, i'm happy right now~~~ i guess i'd mess up the situation, is getting worst between both of us but still i wish to tell you that, i appreciate you and everything you'd done before=) just being happy go lucky as you are~~ remember, i am here i am here ><

second, i wish to give a damn if i could (PCJ taught me this)... oh gosh it's rough, but... DON"T PET ANIMALS IF YOU ARE NOT GONNA CLEAN THE HOUSE.. if it happened once, still i can accept it, but............ dua kali, tiga kali, empat kali, lima kali.... until when people reached back home after last day of final exam, the people supposedly should be celebrating, shout out loud, jumping up and down.. BUT... the exciment went off when she saw the pizza piece scattered on the floor leaving the oily mark on the spot (of curi makan).. duhh~ can you try to understand me?? mop the whole house for the sake of oily marks!!!!! ghhrrr~ sorry but i have to tell this..

third, boring semester.. boring subjects and boring lecturers.. i wan graduate fast.. do AIMST provide RAPID facilities? i do appreciate things when stepping in last year of the degree but feelings changes esp when you don't feel like going for classes, you'll think that it's such a waste of time, the slides are nuisance, lecturers are annoying etc etc. HATE this semester to the max, time flies but we had nothing at the end..

lastly, hate myself being so indecisive~ how how how?? yes or no?? this or that?? please either gift me a dice or take out my brain.. it works?? maybe~~

whoopsss... last but not least.. hate myself being SO EMO..!!!! i am a grown up child, can no longer be so sensitive and emotional... pls pls pls...haha.. but i love it, at least i gain something new after i being emo, whether is good thing or bad thing, still i love to be such a EMO-QUEEN=)

PMS over = normal

i've billions things to blog about~
i've bundles of feeling which to share...
i can't write it here..
but.. to show off here..
^^

normal weekend
but great treasure...!!
i'm fine, and you too..
thanks..
for the M.U.
for the T.
for the C.
for everything i want
you fulfilled my request
perhaps..
not for the period of time
but
is life long
(this gal is asking for much.. isshhhhh)
muaxmuaxmuax

You belong with me- Taylor Swift

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me

how to make myself and you better huh??

跌倒了， 就从新站起来。。 不要因为一次又一次的伤害，而把自己封闭。。！！ 人生不如意的事，多的数不清。。跌倒的人所需要做的事，就好像每天大便一样，用力的把它拉出来。。放开了，是一种解脱。。大不出， 放不下， 解不开，都是你的问题。。好比蔬菜吃不多，水喝不多，笑不多， 运动不多。。解铃人还需系铃人。。劝告我们听得多，给的也多，可是能进得了我们心的, 又有多少呢?? 所以说，要不要大便，能不能大便， 也是靠我们自个儿， 如果我们还是不吃蔬菜水果，不用力量挤出来，认为把粪藏在大肠是很舒服的事，对不起。。我帮不了你了。。！！！ 总该不能要我把手放进你的肛门，挖出来吧？？朋友，我的 dear dear。。 我或许讲的都很废，你开心就好。。。 为什么？？每每不开心时，都是咱三人呢？？我的粪，尽量的排出来，用的是laxative，比较快！！！你们呢？？快点吧~~ 不要再拖下去了， 时间不等人~~

好好想，有什么事是比大完便还要舒服的呢？

=)

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)

The Bottom Line

Somewhere between totally self-centered and completely selfless is a happy medium.

In Detail

You know, someone (and you know exactly who it is) used to do a lot of nice things for you, but what have they done for you lately? If it takes you more than five minutes to think of the last time the thought of you-know-who brought you a genuine moment of pleasure, perhaps it's time to rethink your relationship. Is this a situation that can be changed? Is it one you even want to change? All these are very good questions. Start thinking.

qiao qiao

xiao qiao

R.I.P.

thank you speech

thanks to Mrs. D and Ms. O which loves LV so much, i had a great great time with you guys=) peace of mind, and the tropical smell~~ pls not the combination of fns.. yuckkss.. no one will had it, i swear=) sorry for not turning up for 2mr's trip, i would have rejected her if i knew it earlier that you guys going also.. gomenasai..!!!

thanks to unknown M (not Mirza), for teaching me TKS.. which i used it alot on that "SBFMAH", by the way.. "qiao" and "hiao" is different thing =)

thanks to Mrs. K, for supporting me all the while, finally i joined you, we are on the same boat=) gambateh~

xxx??

i'm like others..
no difference..
what i want is...
"xxxx"
n
"xxxxxxx"
n
"xxxxxxx"

GHHRRRRR...!!!!

she's gone, forever

another 3 hours break.. had my lunch, squatting on the toilet bowl, reading the book "who am i".. my mind was blank, out of sudden.. the last night, i breath in cold, shivered all over the night, cried until i fall sleep.. grey's, and qiao qiao's death~~ phewww.. i gained a lesson, through out the weekend..

there is somebody walks out from your life everyday.. with no signs and any symptoms showing that he/she is leaving.. appreciate the person and tell he/she that you love them.. they are your life.. did you say it?? ever before??

"to love each other even we hate each other, no running nobody walks out no matter what happen.. to take care of each other even when we old, smelly and senile.. and even when i get alzheimer and i forget you.. i will remind you, who i am, everyday.. this is forever..."

people see me as emo person, but i wana tell.. i'm just.. overwhelm=)