counting down. 1.5

read back our old conversation.. i feel, funny.. haha.. i'm sorry... OH My God, i just want to say... i'm so in love with you, especially when you change your mind, giving in more to me; when you flash a smile next day after my overwhelmed night; when you telling me a bts, which apparently is not a bts; when you nag with me, like a small kid; when you lull me into sleep, with negaraku; just less than 24 hours time.. hehe.. miss you miss you =)

PMS over = normal

i've billions things to blog about~
i've bundles of feeling which to share...
i can't write it here..
but.. to show off here..
^^

normal weekend
but great treasure...!!
i'm fine, and you too..
thanks..
for the M.U.
for the T.
for the C.
for everything i want
you fulfilled my request
perhaps..
not for the period of time
but
is life long
(this gal is asking for much.. isshhhhh)
muaxmuaxmuax

You belong with me- Taylor Swift

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You, you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me

i need a reason for this~ sigh!!

dearly

i've been keeping this post.. long time back
i'm sorry for not telling or sharing my feeling with you
never expect all these on me
thought i could be better
i try to cope myself
still is beyond my limitation
eventually
is worsen now...

you spoiled my day. my mood. my thoughts.
torturing me. mentally. psychologically. physically
making my days upside down
i was emo through out the day
nope.. is EVERYDAY
i locked myself in the room
meditating for the sake of
a solution...
that best fit for ME
to
sort ME out
from
this suffering life
i believe that, i could live better..
without your present

dear oh dear
why you have to do it in this way
are you that happy seeing me fall in affliction
huh???
that's my life...!!!!!! you made it miserable~~
i'm disintegrated....
ouucchhh
i can feel the pain, do you??
WHYYY??
why all these happened on me??
are you happy now? tell me....!!!
aarrrgghhhhh~~

GOD please..

S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P
S.T.O.P
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.

making me.....
MISSing HIM tat much~~~ hahahaa

sorry for the late
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARLY
my cake is not a failure.. as they all said is nice, nope is superb delicious!!!
is a master's level piece of work!!!
i'm proud of myself=)
haha..

oh yea~~
another confession from myself
= i believed that, you'd have a better life, with the present of ME =
woowwww... perasannya..

nyahnyah~~ goin back home now..
enjoy the outing with them on this Sunday
faster clean your room and do more exercise
oh yea~ study hard too!!!
between
100 bts for a ciggy, no compensation no negotiation for this!!!
blekkk~~

how i wonder what you are

i pray for rainbow after rain..

the sky is dull
God please sweep away the clouds
human needs moonlight to torch the path
in darkness..
and stars which hanging up high in the sky
twinkle twinkle bright

i gazed over the night
and yet...
the moon is missing

i blame myself for the stupidity
gomenasai~~

happy bday yufei & pt

i wish that you are standing straight in front of me, with both hands open.. no doubts i will run to you, give you thousands cuddles.. i miss you miss you miss you so much~~ though i always say, growing distance makes our heart stronger, but..... you mingling in my mind from time to time~~ isshhh... distraction distraction!!! sigh~~ 3days counting down turn up to be infinity counts.. there is no way out except sitting here and wait patiently for the infinity day turn out to be a blast=) i will hold my "breath", telling myself----H1N1 is spreading in AIMST!!! hell NO~~ 30more minutes for another outing.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY my lovable and adorable ICE(yufei) who eventually melted last night after receivingmy call.. whoopsssyyyyyyy!!! hiakhiak *cunning smile* and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PT CHANG who celebrated her birthday for the first time with her *cough* *cough*.. ahemmm... kind-hearted+competent+capable boyfriend LA.LIM...!! wish both you happy happy together with the boyfriend esp my dearest yufei-ICE...!! may your dreams come true!!! miss yea babe!!!

3, 2, 1... infinity :'(

counting down~~

for infinity~~

sorry.. the number you've dialled, is currently not available=)

where has it gone to? where? where?

oh gosh~~ i shouldn't blog this!!!!

counting down... 1.5~~

hmmphh~

i miss my bds!!!! >.<

counting down... 2.5~~

2 weeks more~~

finally~ all setting down within a week... pham analysis assignment + applies therapeutics assignment & case studies + research presentation...!!! heading to next week i have pham analysis viva and hp viva.. hours left are just ngam ngam for me to study~~ buck up buck up natasha!!! frankly, we play too much in this semester.. hectic though but is the most enjoyful semester i ever had..!! badminton competition, food fiesta, car wash, mid term exam, food fiesta, practice for sketch and dance, PHAM NITEZ - Evening of A Thousand Memories on 20th June2009 ..!!! the most successful event organized by phamsa, leaded by our batch ppl.. we were just cracked to the maximum on the night itself..!! one semester gone, without realizing the time passing fast... 29 days as stated in her msn.. Adios~~

2 weeks more for finalzz.. staring at the stacks of notez which will never be my motivation to study, instead of Zzzzz.... the new lecturers crapped alot in their notez.. for hosp pham, we have Nazer Ali; analysis, Dr. Ravinchandran; thank GOD for applied.. we have a lovely+dedicated lecturer-Mr.Sam!!! eventhough his notez are compact, but still we love to attend his class.. why why why? ahemm.. he is the bachelor in faculty of pharmacy..!! haha... christopher? haiya... who cares=) will never imagine how's finals paper looks like this time.. it's ok.. it's ok.. enjoy to the fullest and leave no regrets...!! LOLxx

meanwhile, i hope my decision was right this time=) he said, i think alot.. yea, i do.. and you too=) for our future wise, we need to, kan?? dunno dunno~~ this is what i always tell you, i have no idea for those happening around but i shall keep the faith & trust on you=) work it out my bds.. miss yea!!!

bts??

omg.. i had bad dream last night...!!

GudMorning everyone, im back again in here.. kind of occupied with the upcoming pham night recently, practicing for the sketch, dance, etc etc etc... almost everyday gone back home by 6+, really need time to study now, final exam is just LESS THAN ONE MONTH to go.. oh lord, gimme 34hours per day, whooppsss.. if i asked for more hours, the more longer i need to wait before i could see YOU=) is endless~~ whenever i said im not worried, eventually I DO.. whenever i said i dun care, still I DO..!! whenever i said, NOT TO COME BACK.. but still i wan you to come back FAST..!! *with t&c apply* sigh~ alritez you owe me 10,000 bts..!! haha...

miss you =.=

weekend again~

again, another busy week~ time passes fast, at times.. though i slept around 3 last night, but still i managed to get up at 8 in the morning=) was chatting with chia jin @ the playground last night (whoopsss... affair.. haha), thank God we are still close as before...!! nothing can take away this best buddy from my life, i wana declare.. HE IS MINE TOO..!! LOLxx

it's Friday..!!! gonna pack my stuff, bath and heading back home in an hour time.. as usual, skip classes again.. my attendance are bad, who cares=p finally finished the lab portion for our research, frankly i just hate being under the psycho Naeem, he basically know nothing..!! initially he crapped for the antibacterial test, but when came to practical that time, he went missing, leave us message "sorry i have no idea how to do it"..!!! wtf.. we manipulated the results, had no more time to play with him lar.. pham nite coming following week, practical exam, viva, final exams.. sigh~~ those things will never end..

for my BDS: i'm touched while reading your message last night.. i never confuse myself since the day i put my trust on you *sweet* i've found you, in a correct way~~ my bds, come back fast and bless you all the time..!! miss you lotsa lotsa lotsa=)

for mia housemates: i will get his phone and date him out=) LOLx.. thanks for everything..!! aheemm, im gonna kill raymond foo...!!

when she(s) said...

those okok with me, managed to convince me=) yea, for a while only, she(s) was absolutely right..!!!!

i miss my bd badly.. is like one or two days gap to see each other, then again need to be apart..!! sniffsniff.. i told myself, be happy to have my bd with me, and be grateful is only few days gap=) i was so confused yesterday, but those evils in my house they scolded me badly.. i insisted that i was right i was not wrong, but they said i was totally went to the wrong way.. fine~ i laughed, for my stupidity=p tc my bd, miss you so so so muchhhh!!!!!

sorry bds

not being emo, but kind of disappointed with you, and myself..!! the same problems running in my mind again, what will we have in future? i doubt for that.. at times, i really feel like giving up everything.. those close to me, they failed to convince me.. and myself, i prefer to step aback.. sorry~ sniffsniff