can we be fren?

when i'm about to tell you, you are either busy, not available, wrong timing etc.. but, do i really wanted to tell you all these out??? oh shit, millions of questionnaires in my mind... i rather commit suicide than facing the truth.. ur action speaks, i do believe...!! i really wanted speak to you, i swear..! but you never take any swear from me, onwards... sobsob.. all i can do is "SORRY" for being so mean.. "SORRY" for the ignorance, "SORRY" for hurting you "SORRY" for loving you... do i really deserve that?? do i? hope time will make you become a forgetful person.. forget the past, but not to forget me, k? =)