DeViL

EMO...!!! i miss my devil, that i used to chat with late night... i miss my devil, that makes me cry almost every night... i miss my devil, that ditched me years back... =( i miss... myself.. and that evil!!! i never trust you, n that's how we ended with.. devil.. get me huh??

双子男vs天枰女

没有什么星座可以像双子男和天秤女那样的贴切了。他们能

在人群中一眼就认出彼此，他们总是能在第一次对视中彼此莫名的痛彻心扉。

在双子的眼中，天秤的女孩几乎是透明的。无论她们笑得多灿烂，表现的多优雅，总能揪起双子心中阵阵的痛疼。有时轻有时重，有时深刻有时弥漫；深深刻进骨里，弥漫重重漫出心灵。

天秤和双子都是容易受伤的人，特别是在爱情里，他们每个人都承受着累累的伤。而且无论是双子还是天秤都容易被人误解。

特别是双子男和天秤女，一个花心一个随性，但是其实从骨子里他们都是最痴情的。只是他们一直不愿放弃一份完美的爱情，他们在人群中寻觅。所以你们说他们花心她们随性，可是他们的的确确是人群中最执着的了。他们执着于那份完美的爱情，那份现实中可遇而不可求的完美的爱情，那是份来自生命底处的信念。

他们是不太专注于一个人，那是因为你不是他们生命中最后要找的人。所以，你不要急于责怪他们，静下心来想一想，然后衷心的祝福他们的。光是坚持这份信念，他们就要在爱情中吃很多的苦，受很多的伤，承受很多的误解，甚至唾骂。是他们不计较吗？不是，他们只是忍住了伤，把痛埋在了心底，在无人的时候自己一个人舔拭伤口；是他们麻木吗？那更是天大的笑话，天底下没有比他们更敏感，更纤细的心灵了。

但是为了生命里的信念，这一切他们统统都可以忽略不计。

天秤女喜欢撒一些小谎，特别是在公共场合，他们喜欢装得开朗大方。但是这一切都逃不过双子男的眼睛，不，应该是逃不过双子男的心。双子几乎凭直觉，凭空气中的流动的气息就可以看到那一个通通透透的天秤了。在双子男眼里天秤女满身都是忧伤。也正是因为这样在天秤面前双子是格外宽容的，他们从来不会揭开天秤的面纱，他们或者只是安静的看着天秤八面玲珑的应酬着，格外夸张的灿烂的笑着；或者他们会帮天秤演着戏，圆上谎，等到人观众都走光了。

为什么说天秤女是双子男身上被拆起的那一条肋骨呢？他们凭什么合拍，这么贴切呢？因为他们拥有同一种来自宿命的疼痛。双子和天秤都是容易受伤的，他们的心都太纤细、太敏感，而他们都又太痴情，太执着，于是他们的身上背负着太多的伤，太多的痛。但那都不是他们最真，最深刻的痛

双子最真、最深刻的痛是来自上帝血淋淋的把天秤从双子身

上折断撕裂开来时的那种痛。那种痛，被他们以后的生命里太多的痛覆盖，有时候连他们自己都忘却了，都分不清了。但是从若干年后，当他们因为寻找彼此而伤痕累累的重逢在在人群中时，他们忽然都一阵彻骨的痛，一个对视就让他们认出了彼此。

由于太多的伤，太多的痛，似乎把他们本该是最真、最深刻的痛都模糊了，都拉得很长了，都若有若无了。他们中也有的人倦了，认命的躺下了。这一点我也并不能太苛求，因为天下有那么多的双子，那么多的天秤，肋骨和亚当却是一对一的，让他们自己认清谁是谁的谁真的不容易。但是对于大多数的他们来说那种痛迟早是要爆发的。

可是双子的痛和天秤的痛又不是一模一样的，双子是亚当，虽然被拆去一根肋骨，但他毕竟还是一个整体，他的心毕竟还有肌肉，皮肤的保护。所以他们的痛永远只在心里，也不是时时刻刻都痛着他的，有时候也可以很长一段时间忘却自己生命中还存在那样的痛，但是他们不知道会在什么时候忽然忆起那种痛，每次忆起时那都会是刻骨的痛。所以双子在受伤时总能很快忘记，很快的高兴起来，所以双子的朋友不用给他太多的安慰。但是不知在某一个时候双子格外的忧伤，格外的痛苦时，已经没有人知道他是为着某一时刻的某一次伤痛了。

而天秤女不同，他们被拆开后，只是一根孤单的骨头，孤单得什么依靠也没有，而且他们完全暴露在日晒雨淋里，什么保护也没有，任何一点点侵害对他们都是刻到骨头里的。他们要保护自己只有痛上加痛，用痛来遮拦痛。

所以天秤很依恋，每一次恋爱她们都以为回家了，可以一辈子了，但换来的多是伤痛。而受伤后的天秤，总是装着很开心，很快乐，越是伤心看起来笑得越是灿烂。但是那她们都是装出来，她们不同于双子，双子的开心和伤心都是真直切切的，只是不知道什么时候发作。而天秤的从来没有真正的快乐过，从来都不可能忘记一点点的伤痛。她们是伤和痛的堆加体，她们的伤痛很绵厚，很悠长，但外表却很坚硬。所以他们看起来很快乐，很为灿烂。直到有一天属于她的双子在人群中发现了他，顿时他们彼此都泪水花了眼眸。

you owed me a song!!!

you are special to me, because.......=)

thanks for coming back to me.. time really flies.. we used to talk about graduation, work, studies, future. even gossiping.. now is time for you to leave me, everyone and everything... you taught me a lot, seriously a lot in 3 years.. the way you handle activities, attitudes when be with others, when Dr.Raj leaving, or your curriculum, perceptions towards life.. haha.. the theory of "life".. funny yet is true!!

as time clicking towards the end,hardly for me to recall back what we had in 3 years.. i tried to keep those memories, stuffed in my forgetful brain, thanks God little is surviving still.. hmmph.. thousand of words i wish to say, but i conclude it fast since is a opened blog=) you could blame me where i chuck the previous one, frankly i deleted it, few weeks back~~

"butterflies dunno what colour of their flying wings are, but human eyes know how nice it is.. likewise you dunno how nice you are, but i know how special you are to me..!!"

please never bother how people look at you, it was merely a mistake (shit, it wasn't) since i stepped in AIMST in the first year... i'm not gonna say sorry to you, because.. i'm forgiven=) we shall meet each other still, if we've got the chance>< adios to the one, you know who you are~~

=)

偶尔忙了一整天，抑或浑浑噩噩的过了一整天，回家时经过面包店，看着橱窗上的蛋糕，你突然想起，原来今天是曾经身边那一位的生日。
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嗯。
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Happy Birthday to U

曾经这一天，费尽心思。虽不是自己的，但这一天跟自己的生日一样重要。要穿什么样的衣服，配什么样的鞋子包包；要在那家餐厅吃饭，蛋糕要不要事先放到餐厅厨房里，待会儿礼物要在哪个时间点拿出来，什么时候该给他生日之吻，希望他的生日愿望有你。。。
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费尽心思。
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“啊~” 你感叹。曾经是那么重要的日子，今天却是那么轻易的就度过了。
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曾经那个人对你来说是多重要，
他的生日，现在却只有在恍然间才记得。
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然后，你嘴角浅笑。。。 。
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也许，这就是人生。

sorry.. the number you've dialled, is currently not available=)

where has it gone to? where? where?

oh gosh~~ i shouldn't blog this!!!!

counting down... 1.5~~

can we be fren?

when i'm about to tell you, you are either busy, not available, wrong timing etc.. but, do i really wanted to tell you all these out??? oh shit, millions of questionnaires in my mind... i rather commit suicide than facing the truth.. ur action speaks, i do believe...!! i really wanted speak to you, i swear..! but you never take any swear from me, onwards... sobsob.. all i can do is "SORRY" for being so mean.. "SORRY" for the ignorance, "SORRY" for hurting you "SORRY" for loving you... do i really deserve that?? do i? hope time will make you become a forgetful person.. forget the past, but not to forget me, k? =)

weekend again~

again, another busy week~ time passes fast, at times.. though i slept around 3 last night, but still i managed to get up at 8 in the morning=) was chatting with chia jin @ the playground last night (whoopsss... affair.. haha), thank God we are still close as before...!! nothing can take away this best buddy from my life, i wana declare.. HE IS MINE TOO..!! LOLxx

it's Friday..!!! gonna pack my stuff, bath and heading back home in an hour time.. as usual, skip classes again.. my attendance are bad, who cares=p finally finished the lab portion for our research, frankly i just hate being under the psycho Naeem, he basically know nothing..!! initially he crapped for the antibacterial test, but when came to practical that time, he went missing, leave us message "sorry i have no idea how to do it"..!!! wtf.. we manipulated the results, had no more time to play with him lar.. pham nite coming following week, practical exam, viva, final exams.. sigh~~ those things will never end..

for my BDS: i'm touched while reading your message last night.. i never confuse myself since the day i put my trust on you *sweet* i've found you, in a correct way~~ my bds, come back fast and bless you all the time..!! miss you lotsa lotsa lotsa=)

for mia housemates: i will get his phone and date him out=) LOLx.. thanks for everything..!! aheemm, im gonna kill raymond foo...!!

a mi amor

short post for my hubby, whom sets miles apart from me now..

words beyond the mouth, but i have no guts to speak out..!! pheww.. look out from the window, is dull and dark~~ couldnt find any reason which lighten up my mood.. how do you do? is everything fine over there?

lock & key

L.O.V.E

painted my life

once upon a time

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H.E.A.R.T

i heart you

3 years ago
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now

i kept my L.O.V.E

&

H.E.A.R.T

in

a small box

locked it

and again

put it in another stainless steel box

chained it

>.<
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what i ask for
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is happiness

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ever after
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for those

gifted by God to bring me happiness
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THANK YOU!! ARIGATO!!!

still

i'm selfish enough

to share my L.O.V.E with you all

because

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I LOST THE KEY.. *winks*

我...

如果, 我放得下.. 你, 将会是我心里的唯一... =)

这是我想对你说的话, 可是... 没勇气.. 哈哈..!! 问我, 有多爱他? 不懂~~ 问我, 有多爱你? 也不懂.. 问我, 他是谁? 不懂.. 你是谁? 我也不懂..

惨了..!! 很想把自己给杀了!!!!

你, 如果, 你找到了你要的幸福, 我会祝福你...!! 如果, 我找到了我的幸福, 你会祝福我吧.. 是吗?

is.. about..

perhaps, and..

question for you..

what's the feeling of love? being love?

what's hatred meant for you?

what's the feeling of getting abandonded? and abandond by someone else?

hurt someone that loves you? and vice versa?

when we talk about.. being not so into it?

getting happiness, but sooner separation approaches?

and above all.. what's the feeling of, ignoring someone.. that loves you?

3. three. tiga

i couldn't pull myself out from it..!! i have been observing for a quite long time.. you are good, in a certain way.. but not all.. "noone knows his/her true colour, they might be a bitch.. and never trust anyone besides you" perhaps you changed, and choosen to stay up with her happily.. but, still i can't accept the truth.. i was all the while seeking for an answer, to put myself in a better situation or to support you.. and yet, i failed.. again, i have to face it today.. her words put me in dilemma.. nope, shall i say she conclude everything? the overall happening? gosh.. what should i do now??

i'm happy when togetherx2 with you.. though i had cockroach crawling on my face, and a dead body besides.. LOL.. i always say i will never trust you, but actually i do=) tats why kena tipu again and again..!!! when tian chen and shi zi meets, i ask for nothing, but hapiness, and simple life..=p

and lastly is for you.. carry on with your life, i can read your mind by a single test.. tsktsk.. is good to have her besides, and never let go anyone in your life(exclude me larr).. i know you understand her better, but to remind you as well, girls understand each other most of the time.. ask from her what you want..!! she is not that stubborn.. she has the faith on you, just that she doesn't has the confident in herself.. convince her, and grasp her with whatever you can!!! k?

__ForeVer __

what we are searching for now, is happiness.. i accepted the way you seeking for it, and i respect you~ meanwhile, i am searching for your happiness, directly or indirectly.. and i admit that, i fond on you=)

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what we own and abondond in past, is not going return to us.. this is life, which keeps on going in a circle, but never speaks karma.!! nobody is perfect person, and none will make up as a incredibly good samaritan. i am not great, and not perfect to be the one as par in your life.. meanwhile, whom you searching for, and loved, is the one, i could never thought of.. i spoke finnish, but i will never understand Y.O.U.

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or maybe, i'm not deserve for that..

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when time approaches, i'm clear that, i shan't make up, everything.. but as serenity passess by, Y.O.U are the one in my mind.. i'm in dilemma, likewise angel evil confront each deeply in my heart, deardfully.. what should i do??

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"one day, God ask me for how long do i need this lovely person with you? I just dropped a single water into the ocean and told, until you find this!"

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God, you found the droplet keh?

__to be__ not to be__

i'm not a toy.. i'm not!!!!

not in a good mood though.. vomitted before badminton, vomitted again after badminton..!! what the hell..? went bed at 10, woke up 7 in the morning! is nice=) after the sickness are gone, i am energetic, and emotional meanwhile...=p

i'm not a toy, to be controlled nor manipulated, neither...

i hate the last semester, to an extreme.. i hate that 'something', to an extreme.. i hate you, and myself, to the maximum..

whatever been said, it seems a lie.. beautiful liar hu?

i tried, and get exhausted.. i hide myself, i ran away, and i fall sick.. sick of you, and everything..

i'm negative, and possesive.. yes, i am..! and i deserved that.. right?

but, you're jerk..!!

training part 4

maintenance week!!! i'm out from production plant, but wish to get back there=) with fully air-conditioner, which under 25 degree celcius, no hot air and shielded from sunlight... sniffsniff~~

what maintenance people do? REPAIR MACHINE LARRRR...... change the light bulb, roboh the machine and repair, pipping for upcoming product.. all we concerned and seen were likely.. grease, gloves with black oil, dirt and dust, etc etc oh yea, and THEY (the akka, technicians, MAYSHA AND KP) bully a girl named NATASHA!!!!!!! bully me to the maxxxxxx...!!! first time kena so teruk in my life, rather keeping quiet, the more i say, the more i will kena from them.. so-called lovely housemate and classmates... my luck to be with them in coming two weeks, bless me:@) is ur show after that, maysha... haha..

what pharmacy people do in maintenance? well.. chit-chatting, gossiping, BULLY ME, playing and fooling around, magazine, and ipod for movie=) i love twiligh... thx tsu yin for the ipod, it killed my boredom=)

sunshine to brighten up ur day, dreaming in the whole morning, thinking of youuuuuu~~~ my first regrets in 2009, is losing you.. by my sides, support me, likewise you did last time.. you never missing from MY LIFE though, thought i moved on, but.. a promise, and a faith on you, myself, and past, future...!! the bond between us, hold it tightly, can? never ever start a fight, can?

part of maintenance department

rose planted by kesaven behind maintenance, it will survive and blossom in a day, trust me..! haha

our working place, small place but can fit in 10 people +

part of equipments and tools

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read this is mag, is all about wedding mag, attire, deco, gift, etc=)

i told them that i need to isolate myself for 30min after read that...to.... to.....to design on my own wedding gaun!! haha..

enjoy the day! nitezzz!!!

where... is it?

Love is not to forget but to forgive

not to see but to understand
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not to hear but to listen

not to let go but to hold on

and yet...

neither of us are willing to forgive

neither of us are willing to understand

neither of us are willing to listen

neither of us are willing to HOLD. tightly

双子座的流星雨

the sky is dull, without stars..

once upon,

i wish you are here, be with me..

patiently waiting for...

双子座的流星雨!!

all the best..!!

for everything...

hard to make up my word,

bear in mind

L.O.V.E

H.O.P.E

F.A.I.T.H

santa claus

you left me nothing, with the heart which had broken into pieces
shengdanlaorendaitahuilaiwoshenbianhaoma..

6+

i. know. that. i. cant. do. anything. to. hold. you. back.

i. am. just. missing. you.

life.. is about to find the right number, in a right order..

heart you STILL=)

you are my only one

shall we dancE? =p