little gal's wishes

as a kid, i will never understand, the mama's feeling, of security and trustworthy~~ i had the idea of carry on my plan without thier knowing.. but still my mind and my sayang>.< told me not to do so, i wanted be a gud gud gal and gud daughter, i wont hurt them as i loved them and they loved me too!!! but.. but.. their call, make me feel like, giving up everything...!! fine, i'm not the perfect one still, in their eyes i'm always a little girl who's being rebellious, and stubborn~~ aiksss... I"M NOT!!! ghhhrrr...

meanwhile, i doubted, was she telling the truth? who am i to question you and clarify that? nope, i'm not gonna mess up things.. currently, i'm glad to have you, my family and frens around... you all are gifted by God and nth gonna take you guys away from me~~

perhaps you understand that, i'm making move to take you back, becuase in my heart it says that, i rather give up the world than losing you~~

oh my god, what the hell i want?

failed candidate

eventually, you just don't have the trust towards me, and him as well...!!! i am super duper down.. down down down down down~~ why can't you understand me better in your way? why must conclude everything fast without giving me a chance, at least to prove that i'm not wrong... i took up my choice and insisted my faith for that.. why why why? i doubt, whether am i really blessed or.. not!!

xi guan de ren

yeah~ im still awake this time.. should say, i jus woke up from my dream, done my laundry, fb-ing, and sticking on chair updating my blog now!!

you always the one i worry about..!! you seems to be tough, yet do you ever know that how frail are you, gal?? will you hidding under the pillow and cry overnight? will you search for friends in phone book, and yet dunno who to call? will you understand that avoiding is the most exhausting? don't give me the same answer when everytime i ask whether are you alritez? i find you don't.. perhaps you do=) are you giving up or shall i say you weary of the happening around you? fangfang, dun stay apart from me.. LOlx.. i need you more, vice versa... haha..

alritez.. gonna start doing hp assignment.. so mafann~~

nitez.. my dear, my hubby, and my sayang~~ omg.. too much la this gal!! haha

day 10

shall i take him as the hubby for my car?

looks more yeng le!!! >.<

@ salsa, penang=)

yeeny said, it looks like dog food..
hmmm.. kind of larr...

gotcha~~ our missing vaccum pump
was found in MTM lab

deardear's happy family
where's the child?

a mi amor

short post for my hubby, whom sets miles apart from me now..

words beyond the mouth, but i have no guts to speak out..!! pheww.. look out from the window, is dull and dark~~ couldnt find any reason which lighten up my mood.. how do you do? is everything fine over there?

你, 习惯的人呢?

習慣，就是時間累積而來的一種動作。

早上，我總是走進7-eleven。
走了走，東選西選，還是選回了每天吃的三明治。
進到辦公室坐下後，總是開了機收信，然後放歌，
看了看，上選下選，還是聽起了那首最愛聽的。
開始寫程式前，總是洗了洗杯子走近飲水機，
看著瓶瓶罐罐，最後還是拿了一包就走。

人生總有很多的選擇。
每天要面對的選擇，很多。
吃什麼，做什麼，玩什麼，看什麼....
雖然你每天都在做選擇。

不過，總是...總是...
會選回你每次選的那個。
因為習慣。

習慣，是時間累積而來的一種動作。

情人間常說：「我對你不再有愛，都變成了習慣了。」
其實，習慣並沒有什麼不好。
它讓你自然的去做。
自然的去想他，自然的去愛他。

當你已經不覺得自己在付出時，
也許你覺得，你己開始習慣，有他陪伴在你的生命中，
那才是真的愛。
有什麼不好？

我一直認為
很多事情開始要一個人獨自去做時
就失去它的意義：

當習慣了兩個人一起吃飯

習慣了兩個人一起看書

習慣了兩個人一起工作

習慣了兩個人一起散步

習慣了兩個人一起回家

習慣了兩個人一起聊天

習慣了兩個人一起商量事情

習慣了兩個人一起發呆

習慣了兩個人一起喝咖啡

習慣了兩個人一起..........

開始一個人
很多快樂都不再了...

請珍惜你身邊所有
把握任何一個美麗的機會
失去了就不再了...

現在請你回想一下
你習慣的那個人，是不是讓你感覺很熟悉，就像家人一樣？
這種感覺，不是那麼容易就可以擁有的，應該好好的珍惜。

也許有天你失去了，才會明白這個人，在你的心理是佔了很大的位置。
好緣份是很神奇的東西，它只送給用心去經營的人。

最近你是否不再那麼用心，去關心或態度冷淡了嗎???
趕快去抓住你那個熟悉的人吧，必竟你們曾經走過那一段，不是嗎？

pokkai post

"jie, can you pay this month phone bill? i'm broke already..."

she called after i text her this.. luckily not scolding and questioning me lotsa.. she promised to settle the bill for me=) 2k within 2 weeks, i'm... speachless~~ many things running in my mind now, how am i gonna survive next? how am i gonna survive in future? 4k salary per month enuf keh? how to earn extra pocket money?" _t_u_t_t___" takkan bread for every meal.. oh god i dun wan~~ i shop alot and spend alot.. is getting worst ever after 3rd year in aimst.. my criminal partner 1 is lim sue hui.. our similarity-- will buy anything we like w/o considering the price.. she is fine still.. my criminal partner 2-bong yeeny!! lagi teruk~~ we will spent together on liquor, food, skin care, shoes, make up thingy.. oh God again i pled you please please please take her away, not from my life, but whenever i go shopping.. please make sure that she is not following!!! LOLxx

i text my sister again..

"jie, since ur lil sis have no money, could you please sayang her more? hmm.. 200 per month cukup la.. so both you (my eldest sister and 3rd sister who currently working in kl) giving me 400 per month, k? then i will get another 200 from er jie (2nd sister).."

damn it..!! this is natasha lim pey bin!! aka not a xoxo shopaholic=) i can get the bobbi brown mascara next week.. LOLx.. brief intro to every bobbi brown lover...!!!

latest product: Perfectly Defined Mascara makes the most of every lash. In one easy sweep, this ingenious mascara lengthens, separates and curls lashes for perfect definition. The secret? A unique multi-comb brush and equally innovative formula, working together to enhance each and every lash. The flexible, all-day wear formula resists flaking, doesn't smudge and stays in place all day. Pair with your favorite shade of Bobbi’s Long-wear Gel Eyeliner and Creamy Eye Shadow for eyes that stay put all day long. Best of all, it removes easily with warm water. Ophthalmologist and Dermatologist tested. Safe for contact lens wearers.

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=) have a nice day

people

i still wana continue my words..

i can't see the trust between us.. is fragile... likewise i break my promises and again i know that i'm going to repeat the same tonight, or it might worsen compared to the other day.. and your side.. you not gonna change for me and urself.. maybe i'm not the one you loved, thats why you ignoring me.. aheemmm=p her words/his words inflencing me much and causing me to walk away from everything~~ until now and even this afternoon i saw you also i'm giving a blur face.. not all the while i'm pissed with you but i feel like i fck up everything cause of... my sin..!!!!

anyway, i will out to penang tonight and most probably overnight there, enjoy ur b.m trip 2mr..=)

i really miss home rite now :'(

where is the eternity of love?

hmmppp... iz's call woke me up..!! blur blur still.. facebook-ing and wana post sth new, but what crossing my mind was... EMPTINESS!!! maybe lil bit moody though, too many things to think~~ haha..

went for movie-angels and demons, last night.. undeniable, it was great~~ raymond said the next date will be 'night in the museum'.. Lolx.. and we are not gonna bring maysha together=)

day 6, what am i suppose to do hu? i plan for nothing initially instead yeeny plan everything for me later night.. hehe.. gonna meet up my best best buddy.. which currently in a not -so-good condition~~ sigh.. everyone is falling apart..?? dunno~~ i'm so so so lazy to cross the bridge, is it far distance for me or is it because my heart keep on telling 'no' and 'stop' for everything? dunno~~ i'm learning to walk away from.. reality=) which doesnt seems to belong to myself or to best fit my concept/perception... she said "ppl will hurt you" she said "try not to love ppl" she sweared "i syg him better" she said"i pilih kasih" she said "he will" and yet she told "finally.." she told "not urs" she told "let go" she told "its on fire.. !!!" what the heck is on fire? dunno~~ she told "she's fine.." i will never believe in this..!!! lastly, he said "can see la" he said "my sixth sense" he said " im in love with her" he said "time.."

ghhrrr.. im v v v blur rite now... sorry!!!

fb quiz.. sien diao!!

他/她的味道總在四周遊蕩... 想念得好像溶進血液裡... 好吧，請由今天在月曆上寫下︰『放開別人，放開自己』 別讓眼淚白流。好好愛自己，別人才懂愛你。

happy birthday ISEX

many post pending still, but decided to give priority for this..!! went celebrating iz's bday after applied paper, KUN TAI restaurant near bagan ajam, they serving thai food, not bad la.. 6.5/10 i give=p one bonus was the THAI BIRTHDAY SONG they played for the bday gal/boy...!! nggammmm.. show time..!!!

tomyam, lala (lov tat), kangkung goreng, siakap, chicken and chicken~

from left: pris, iz (bday boy), and raymond foo
aiyoo.. biasa lar=)

from left: kailin, yeesuan, huiqin, jamie

clemence & wilson

poh chia __ & kailin (fill in the blank pls..)

both are v v v shy.. haha

nat & sm ppl =)

clemence, sm ppl, poh chia __

maysha and her's ramen=)

pris & iz

i like this pic=) chun looks like alien.. hehe

housemates housemates~~

sm ppl, poh, iz, wilson, raymond

our turn~~

hahahaaaa......... look at 3 of em'

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happy birthday iz!!!!!

lock & key

L.O.V.E

painted my life

once upon a time

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H.E.A.R.T

i heart you

3 years ago
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now

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locked it

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put it in another stainless steel box

chained it

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what i ask for
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ever after
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for those

gifted by God to bring me happiness
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THANK YOU!! ARIGATO!!!

still

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I LOST THE KEY.. *winks*

say no to fb quiz

a short post before my sweet dreams..! shoot down HTN, AP, and MI in 3hours, with fingers and eyes concentrating more on facebook..

at least.. facebook made me smile.. for those stupid quiz and comments all
1st: we are not understand each AT ALL..
2nd: we will see a ghost loitering in semeling bridge late night.. oppsss, 2 ghosts.. LOLz
3rd: raymond needs a kereta lembu.. haha..

sigh~ i do care actually.. but still fine, perhaps i dun, from now onwards.. how come, ann understands me better than you hu? i am talking about YOU..! YOU..! YOU..!
and another YOU..!! OCCOCC!! bestie for 10years +, at least i passed urs, ok? argued that my questions were all tricky~~ YOUR HEAD!! i'm not liar!! i'm not playing with the words and answers around..!! i never said "currently" cant be the 'history' of 5years back..!! and "4" instead of a "football team".. i'm not a pig! i'm not mu zhu!! ghhhrrrrr.... pissed off + UPSET duh... arrgghhhh~~~~

as day 2 approaching.. 3years are gone in twinkling of an eye!!! 10 years? swt~

and.. and... will you hit the target higher than ann? slap me *winks*

AT suxx.. i wan icecream..!!

the criss-cross in my mind, doesnt meant for anything!! none!!

no wonder how hard i tried, terquila remains terquila, no more vodka or chivas~~

as day 1 started, is.. issssaaa...... shhhhuuuuuuu...!!!

we will only count down for the last day.. cummon' =)

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applied applied..

i prefer actue infection, instead you giving chronic situation towards me..

stacks of notez, giving no response

no matter how i look at em'

from up, bottom.. left or right~

pls pls pls..

smile at me.. at least!!

por favor!!!

swt~~

our joys!!!

Poh chia told, we are all different and we are changing everyday, compared to the new faces in first year.. at first, i ignored him.. for his stupidity, human are changing and evolving from times to times.. kan?? but, i never realized that such a tremendous changes happened among our classmates=p alritezz.. i'm idoit!!!

when we were in the first year~ sept 2006'

from left: raymond, liang ann, wilson~~ hahaha..

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raymond and clemence~ look at his innocent face=)

peithing, isac~ act cute!! nyahnyah~~

and this reminded me that leon was just sitting besides iz in the 1st sem,

and i used to lepak behind with zul and VILASHINI=)

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wilson~ sleeping in class..

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yeah~ no doubt! he is liang ann!!!

kinda miss the time in amanjaya hu?

yeahh~ i do^^

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nat with short hair & yili with long hair~

poh chia and leenee~ he looks nerd.. LOLx

nat & chun w/o braces

communication skills presentation..

yeah poh chia, i do agree that IZ looks different, even better now=p

the first birthday we celebrated out-of-AIMST!!

and i wont forget the first bday we had it in AIMST~

clemence's bday-everyone was crazy over the night..!!

too bad i dun have any photo in hand..=(

but i've found the photo of i and the bday girl~ clemence

after the great great war!!

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3 things caught my eyes..

1st: isac's pity face

2nd: liang ann=) he looks like a toy!!

3rd: saran's hairstyle.. nyahnyahh~~

the first trip.. we hang out together in penag!!

the banana boat story~

who's in the picture? figure out urself XDXDXD

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POC 2- our beloved lecturer.. DR.RAJ!!

from left: kailin, hui qin, wilson, hui ying

this is v v v v precious picture!!

wana know why? ask HIM!

Azizul Hakim-my bestie

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alamak! apa sdh jadi?

arsenal lost to chelsea oni wat~~ hehez

and i found this pix... for U=)

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say cheese >.<

happy mother's day

yeahh~~ im still in time.. lets' wish all the mama around the world........

= HAPPY MOTHER"S DAY =

truely from all the guai guai kidos around the world.. haha

text my mum a message this morning, after so much complication both us had for the KL journey :'( sorry for that~~ i'm sure that will be her greatest+sweetest than sodium saccharin+warmest message she ever received.. which impressed her, melted her heart and the soul (perasannya.. kekezzz).. readers, interested keh?? okok.. wait patiently... is cuming right after this... about... once upon a time, there is a lil girl... natasha.. very sayang her mother.. brruuupp~ I'M NOT GONNA SHARE this in my blog~~ though blog is for sharing or daily thoughts, yet peithing will laugh at me de.. hehe..

Chang PeiThing~ "wondering how long will u be around?"

yet he answered " long long long time"

so sweet both you~~ kan i said, ur future hometown in kuantan, not NT.. =p anyway, i dun wish to married to there as well.. so ULU the place.. haha.. he's gonna kill me if he happened to read this~~ alritez, watch this! another great mama~~

que?

emo emo emo..

arghhh~~

emo emo emo..

arghhhhhh~~

sorry la!!!!!!!

why la all these happened??

why none pick up when i called? or.. BUSY...!!!

what should i do??

gghhhhrrrr......!!!

fck off..!!! just... fck off..

waaa!! sobsob~



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08/05/09

To-Do List
* applied assignment (handwritten)
* pharmacology assignment
* hospital pharmacy assignment (handwritten).. swt
* print out notez for applied
* study study for applied midterm!!!
* research~research~ (sigh)
* final report for research
* kl
* penang~ for my dear and dearest

my list to be clear within the one week break.. pending NO MORE lazy bump!!! was so undecided for the schedule arrangement.. home? mother's day? research? assignemnt? kl? thank God you make me worriezz no more=) thanks for the time, company, which buZz off my guilt and my homesickkssss=p though is superb short but sweet.. haha.. gotta rearrange back my fuss.. i'm heading to kl 2mr, will come back asap for my research (ghhhrrr, i wont give up still).. meanwhile, HAVE TO wallop both applied and pharmacology assignment by today~~ God, kill me instead.. aiksss.. sap sap sui la...!!

PLS SAVE EM'

The residents of Pulau Ketam sent some 300 stray dogs to exile on a remote island where the harsh conditions almost certainly guarantee a horrible death. Of the 300 dogs sent there, more than three-quarters are presumed to be already dead. I traveled to the island with Sabrina Yeap of Furry Friends Farm and managed to save only one dog on this reconnaissance trip. We did see several other starving and dying dogs along the mangrove shore.

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I am mounting an urgent rescue mission to capture and transport the remaining survivors back to Sabrina's Furry Friends Farm animal shelter. But time is running out and there might be only skeletons and carcasses left to collect on our next trip. Boat hire is expensive there. It is a tourist area and it has already cost me a few hundred ringgit for boat hire alone, so far. The rescued dogs cannot be transported on the regular ferries.

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Almost nobody will lift a finger to help without a fee. This is understandable. The locals are already shaking their heads in disbelief that there are outsiders who want to save the animals they so casually discarded. Instead of pointing fingers and antagonising them, we need their co-operation to help save the unfortunate creatures. In the process, we also hope to educate the islanders on better treatment of animals. It would be an impossible mission if we didn't win their hearts.

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If you are unable to help directly, please help by forwarding this appeal to other compassionate folks who you feel might be able to make some monetary contributions. Apart from boat hire, we need money to buy cages, to pay people to help catch them, to hire land transport to send the rescued animals to veterinary clinics, pay for vet fees, send the recovered ones to the shelter and to feed and house them for life. I can go on! To donate or help, e-mail TV Smith at tvsmith@mycen.com.my or Sabrina Yeap at yeapwen@yahoo.com

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Furry Friends Farm CIMB 1457-000-1182-05-6

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Send money by PayPal to tvsmith@gmail.com

我...

如果, 我放得下.. 你, 将会是我心里的唯一... =)

这是我想对你说的话, 可是... 没勇气.. 哈哈..!! 问我, 有多爱他? 不懂~~ 问我, 有多爱你? 也不懂.. 问我, 他是谁? 不懂.. 你是谁? 我也不懂..

惨了..!! 很想把自己给杀了!!!!

你, 如果, 你找到了你要的幸福, 我会祝福你...!! 如果, 我找到了我的幸福, 你会祝福我吧.. 是吗?

husband-wife's diary

wife's diary...(Sunday night)

I thought he was acting weird. We had made plans to meet at a cafe to have some coffee. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no comment. Conversation wasn't flowing so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk, he agreed but his mind was far away. I asked him what was wrong - he said, "Nothing." I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. He said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry. On the way home I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept driving. I can't explain his behavior; I don't know why he didn't say, "I love u, too." When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just sat there and watched TV; he seemed distant and absent. Finally I decided to go to bed. About 10 minutes later he came to bed. I decided that I could not take it anymore, so I decided to confront him with the situation but he had fallen asleep. I started crying and cried until I too fell asleep. I don't know what to do. I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else (another woman). My life is a disaster.

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HUSBAND's DIARY

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Today Manchester United lost again !!!

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______________________The End__________________________

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i would blame on "TRUST".. to work out a long lasting relationship, trust and understanding are both important=) less fishy, eventhough man.. oppsss... "CAT" do eat fish.. haha.. but still, i wondering.. why is it so hard for a person to trust the partner? ALL girls demanded security, but commitment urged for trustworthy...

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Natasha's diary...

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EMO.. not bcuz i fck up my pham analysis paper.. (lil bit)...

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CHELSEA LOST TO BARCELONA!!!!!

:'( :'( :'( :'(

朋友, 还好吗?

伤口用多久复原? 再次裂开的又用了多久?

你,我,她.. 都是同种人吧!! 所以, 我的好朋友, 时时刻刻都在我身边.. 我开心时, 你们也开心.. 相反的, 我伤心时.. 你们也不回好过.. 哈哈!!! 朋友!!! 你们最近还好吗?

你, 仍然走不出来.. 爱情,让你怕了吧.. 一次又一次, 跌跌撞撞的.. 我看到了你对爱情的执着, 不是你的错.. 时机?缘分? 我不懂~~~

她, 傻傻的, 在期盼着她所谓的爱情的来临.. 然而他, 却一次又一次的让她失望, 伤心.. 她的世界里, 可能外人看到的, 是开心.. 可是, 我所看到的.. 是无数次的挣扎, 痛苦.. 男人, 为什么让她流泪呢? 为什么不给她一个答复呢? 为什么... 让她徘徊在, 伤心多过于开心的边缘呢?

我... ~待续~ =p

the company HOLDER .. =p

i'm lazy.. lazy bump..
mingling in exam week, but not in the mood of studying=(
when reaching to the end of degree life, people might take things for granted..
likewise.. myself=)
good result??? aiyaaa dun care la..
this is how i feel now..
maybe wilson is right, result is just a piece of paper..

there are many successful examples with a non-educated background..
i might possibly be the lucky one. hahaha..
i dun have the brain for keeping theories, suxx.. but...

i have a company to manufacture drugs..

involving in R&D of new drugs drugs "in future".. haha..
shit!! the notes drives me crazy~~
pharmacology~ assays~ GA~~ ghhrrrr
the most torturing is.. analysis

chromatography.. phewww

the tutorial itself is graded 6stars (means v v v v tough)

what shall we expect for the paper hu??

ngmmm... praying for 1star?

IMPOSSIBLE!!! but nothing is impossible (the Obama case)
well.. and the most horrifying--

6 slides per pages, roughly 50 wordings per slides..

43 pages overall.. means i need to go through 12900 words within 24hours after analysis paper.. wtf!!! tat old man bullshiting with all the terms, functions, scopes and objectives, applications etc.. omg~~ RIP (and RIP for applied therapeutic as well) XDXDXD
what bothering me was.. TIME!!

studies, exam, lepak with friend.. and.. you=)
how should i manage my time for each of you? instead of.. spending all with you?

no way..!!!!!
sigh~~
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sigh~~

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still.... i need to speak out one fact..!!

"i'll gonna owned a pharmaceutical company in future" nyahnyah..

go study!! stop draeaming~~ LOLx

but.. im not dreaming either..

katy perry-thinking of you

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed

You said move on, where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will know

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test

He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh!
(Taste your mouth)
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself'

Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into

You're the best, and yes, I do regret
How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learnedI touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know!

'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
(Thinking of you, thinking of you)
Thinking of you, what you would doIf you were the one who was spending the night
(Spending the night, spending the night)
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes

Oh, won't you walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes
'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay