can we be fren?

when i'm about to tell you, you are either busy, not available, wrong timing etc.. but, do i really wanted to tell you all these out??? oh shit, millions of questionnaires in my mind... i rather commit suicide than facing the truth.. ur action speaks, i do believe...!! i really wanted speak to you, i swear..! but you never take any swear from me, onwards... sobsob.. all i can do is "SORRY" for being so mean.. "SORRY" for the ignorance, "SORRY" for hurting you "SORRY" for loving you... do i really deserve that?? do i? hope time will make you become a forgetful person.. forget the past, but not to forget me, k? =)

natasha gone insane

ghhrr~
i need pest control..!!
to kill the lazy worms circulating in my blood stream~~
hosp pharm notez drives me crazy..
whooppss...
is driving me into my dreamland=)
I'm so so so so tense up now..!!
HELP .. HELP.... HELP........
none is here...
i'm drowned :'( :'( :'(
kindly attend my funeral 2mr
>.<

love' the bottom line

The Bottom Line

Go out with some good buddies you haven't seen for a while. You miss them!

In Detail

You're looking toward the future with a happy heart and an optimistic attitude -- and there's really no better way to do it. That's not all that's required, however, and you know that, too. So when it comes time for you to step up and do the right thing -- to put your money where your mouth is -- you'll be more than willing to do it. The good news is that with all that confidence oozing out of every pore, you can't help but be a success.

GudMorning Everyone~~ say cheese=)

2 weeks more~~

finally~ all setting down within a week... pham analysis assignment + applies therapeutics assignment & case studies + research presentation...!!! heading to next week i have pham analysis viva and hp viva.. hours left are just ngam ngam for me to study~~ buck up buck up natasha!!! frankly, we play too much in this semester.. hectic though but is the most enjoyful semester i ever had..!! badminton competition, food fiesta, car wash, mid term exam, food fiesta, practice for sketch and dance, PHAM NITEZ - Evening of A Thousand Memories on 20th June2009 ..!!! the most successful event organized by phamsa, leaded by our batch ppl.. we were just cracked to the maximum on the night itself..!! one semester gone, without realizing the time passing fast... 29 days as stated in her msn.. Adios~~

2 weeks more for finalzz.. staring at the stacks of notez which will never be my motivation to study, instead of Zzzzz.... the new lecturers crapped alot in their notez.. for hosp pham, we have Nazer Ali; analysis, Dr. Ravinchandran; thank GOD for applied.. we have a lovely+dedicated lecturer-Mr.Sam!!! eventhough his notez are compact, but still we love to attend his class.. why why why? ahemm.. he is the bachelor in faculty of pharmacy..!! haha... christopher? haiya... who cares=) will never imagine how's finals paper looks like this time.. it's ok.. it's ok.. enjoy to the fullest and leave no regrets...!! LOLxx

meanwhile, i hope my decision was right this time=) he said, i think alot.. yea, i do.. and you too=) for our future wise, we need to, kan?? dunno dunno~~ this is what i always tell you, i have no idea for those happening around but i shall keep the faith & trust on you=) work it out my bds.. miss yea!!!

Evening of A Thousand Memoriesss

nitez before =( swt~~

make up make up~
this is what we called- ai mei de nv ren.. haha

@ Andaman Ballroom
Park Royal, penang

deco for the table~~
simple but nice...

cutest + handsome boy in AIMST=)
dress up for sketch performance....

70's fever...!!
congrats team member for such a great dance and memorable experience

2camwhore PIG

nat & cute cute MC-Jivan

cake cutting for bday gal&boy
from left: ganesan, kaminy, pris
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
may your dreams come true=)

with seniors~~
from left: may yen, see wooi, yng wen, nat, sokcin, ayu, lydia, seak fang

pham batch 2 rocksss!!!

在你心中有这样的一个人吗？

你们可能相爱过，你们可能也喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。

也许为了出过深造，他没有要你等他。
也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你会投胎吃，对方已不再等待。
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没能在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系，
但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。
男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。
每个人这辈子，心中都会有过这么一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。
一开始你不甘心只做朋友，但久了，突然发现这样最好。
你宁愿这样关心他，总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。
特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。
做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？
你心中的这个特别的朋友。。。。。？是谁呢？

很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，
可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句我喜欢你，如果你没有反应，
这一段感情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因此这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。
有些事不是你能预料到的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。
也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友。。。。

adios bangkok~~

sobsob.. we are leaving~~

=) =)

handsome guy.. aiksss...

itu dia~~

the online tools in airport~
kindly refer back my previous post=)

adios bangkok~~

bangkok d4

view from my room

breakfast~ yummy yummy..
esp the yoghurt=)

camwhore.. tsk tsk..

1st destination: floating market..

youngest seller over there=)

1, 2, 3.. say cheese.. dun la so moody..

lunch~~
the chiang mai curry mee yichiban!!

and the desserts.. gosh..!!
v v v delicious...

2nd destination: Wat Phra Kaew (Temple of Emerald Buddha)

Wat Phro=)

The Grand Palaces

3rd destination: Chatuchak weekend market
over 15,00 stalls.. selling pets too

cute shuttle busXDXDXD

dinner place~

tat night was full moon=)
i miss you so much.. haha

here it comes~
night view in bangkok..

is.. endless....

i learn a new vocab..!! endless.. for endless love, is eternity.. for endless havoc, is problematic..!!! imagine u were placed at a junction, right or left?? which path to take and road to be chosen?? dunno.. dun ask me.. dunno who to help and how to solve the predicaments... i shouldnt no no no no.... keep on telling myself, reminding me NOT TO.. pls pls pls dun get me involve in all these things, i never ask for it and i dun wish it to turn up to be part of my issue in a day...

again, it was my fault.. i shouldnt brought up the issue.. i shouldnt mind other business.. i shouldnt open my mouth telling words which i am not suppose to... stupid dumb ass natasha.... can't just stop fighting? is only a year left, cant we stay with each and everyone peacefully and harmonically??? get me away from the junction, take me out take me out........!!!!!!!!!!!

for those seeing me everyday, sorry for being emo recently.. my words are tend to be hurtful at times.. im sorry if i do.. i need a break.. for EVERYTHING...!!! which included, YOU n ME too... ignore me is the best way.. i need no cares from others, and YOU.. i prefer.. to be alone.. gimme some time, pls...

~~ latest updates.. *winks*

thanks for everything... the sweet sweet.. and cute cute one.. blablablabaaa... i know we can make it..!! thanks thanks thankss....

bangkok d3

day3, before leaving pattaya.. sobsob~
pic taken in front golden beach hote@@

1st destination: safari world, located miles away from bangkok city
orang utan boxing show~

sea lion show~

the crowd in safari world...!!
though was rainy season, but still congested T.T

cowboy show!!!

lunch served in safari world.. buffet style!!

i wan the ladybird..
but managed to shoot only 2 free throws out of 10 T.T

again~ the crowd..!!
the seats were fully occupied once the show starts... wooww..
wondering flow of the people and the income per day will be??

spy war zone~~

entering to the wild life territory

where am i? south africa? LOLx

whoopss... my lazy bumpie i found u here=)

and your gang tooXDXDXD

ahem.. candidate 2=)

dinner~ dinner~

suan lam night market..
nothing much selling over there cuz its going to close down soon= =

the famous four faced buddha!!
a must & famous tourist spot..!!
kc, i met aiai there..!!

my room~
we stayed @ Baiyoke Sky Hotel
the tallest building in bangkok..
anticipating for the night view? coming right after this!!!

yea, the messiest was my bed=.=

nitezz readers...!!