i need a reason for this~ sigh!!

dearly

i've been keeping this post.. long time back
i'm sorry for not telling or sharing my feeling with you
never expect all these on me
thought i could be better
i try to cope myself
still is beyond my limitation
eventually
is worsen now...

you spoiled my day. my mood. my thoughts.
torturing me. mentally. psychologically. physically
making my days upside down
i was emo through out the day
nope.. is EVERYDAY
i locked myself in the room
meditating for the sake of
a solution...
that best fit for ME
to
sort ME out
from
this suffering life
i believe that, i could live better..
without your present

dear oh dear
why you have to do it in this way
are you that happy seeing me fall in affliction
huh???
that's my life...!!!!!! you made it miserable~~
i'm disintegrated....
ouucchhh
i can feel the pain, do you??
WHYYY??
why all these happened on me??
are you happy now? tell me....!!!
aarrrgghhhhh~~

GOD please..

S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P
S.T.O.P
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.
S.T.O.P.

making me.....
MISSing HIM tat much~~~ hahahaa

sorry for the late
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARLY
my cake is not a failure.. as they all said is nice, nope is superb delicious!!!
is a master's level piece of work!!!
i'm proud of myself=)
haha..

oh yea~~
another confession from myself
= i believed that, you'd have a better life, with the present of ME =
woowwww... perasannya..

nyahnyah~~ goin back home now..
enjoy the outing with them on this Sunday
faster clean your room and do more exercise
oh yea~ study hard too!!!
between
100 bts for a ciggy, no compensation no negotiation for this!!!
blekkk~~