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wake up... after the severe headaches.. crossing my fingers, thank God wasnt migrain come attack..lol=)

is time to blog!!!! a called from outstation this evening, terribly crying killing pig on phone for hour plus.. my heart is broken, and blaming myself not besides you at times.. sorry!! past is past, just let go if we cant hold it in our hands anymore!! this is what i'm repeating all the while, my brain temporary rosak, cant process a better word to comfort you=) you feel guilt for the lil one, i...just......................................... sigh~~



IF...




and.......... IF.......





i am not greedy to be almighty, but i request for another power... "IF i could turn time back, think i need a reverse clock=)"