DeViL

EMO...!!! i miss my devil, that i used to chat with late night... i miss my devil, that makes me cry almost every night... i miss my devil, that ditched me years back... =( i miss... myself.. and that evil!!! i never trust you, n that's how we ended with.. devil.. get me huh??

emo-ing

OMFG!!! its been ages since my last post.. i gotta feeling, of crapping over the night. HERE. yeap.. right here.. life isn't goes well since i have enrolled into hospital, as a PRP.. who is going to listen to my crap, perhaps U!! sigh~ just get my forensic exam over, bought mysef iphone but not keen to the new gadget yet.. thinking of how to pamper myself after hard work of 6weeks.. shopping till i drop? or laze over the weekend? buy myself a trip? hmm... i was hoping time flies, to oct 2011 when i'm entitled as a FRP, i will have the power in my hand and asking for more HOLIDAYSSS!! tats what i'm looking forward to.. damn it!! turning into 24 in less than 2 months time, stepping into 2011, perhaps is a brand good year for everyone.. i'm not that good though.. good night my dear friend, i wish you still keeping my blog address.. i really miss you so much!!!

1, 2, 3..

is so used to say that, i'll never understand you.. haha.. i mean it.. yet i so used to this sentence "i dunno why but i understand why".. when was it, how was it, and what was it.. remember huh?? the lil bit thingy that might separated us far far away.. i wonder what is those crappy but i would say, better don't ^^ to leave for live.. again my heart shattered.. i dunno why, but i understand why.. sigh~ moving on but still long path to go, though.. when to get through it and how to get over it, again yet endless.. i regrets, for previous mistakes.. else, i will have at least sth to refer to.. now, what's leaving behind is.. 1, 2, 3..

damn it!!!

Guideline for assignment write-up and presentation.

1. Clear description/expression of the topic.

2. Concise abstract of the assignment.

3. Strong and effective introduction to the subject

4. Appropriate explanation of history, mission and goals.

5. Identify issues/problems clearly.

6. Appropriate reference, quotation, literature review and use of data from previous research.(at least 5 literature/journal review)

7. Explain value of assignment.

8. Originality of ideas, and able to demonstrate critical insight into issues/problems and solution.

9. Clearly express your opinions and suggestions on overcoming such issues.

10. Illustrations and graphics would be added advantages in explaining facts and figures.

11. Relation and description of local/Malaysia scenario.

12. Effective and compelling closing and conclusions.(HAND-WRITTEN)

13. Proof read of assignment paper for facts and language errors.

14. The final paper must be at least ten (10) pages neatly typed (except no. 12), exclusive of title page and reference page, typed in standard font, size 12, double spaced, 1.25 inch margin.

双子男vs天枰女

没有什么星座可以像双子男和天秤女那样的贴切了。他们能

在人群中一眼就认出彼此，他们总是能在第一次对视中彼此莫名的痛彻心扉。

在双子的眼中，天秤的女孩几乎是透明的。无论她们笑得多灿烂，表现的多优雅，总能揪起双子心中阵阵的痛疼。有时轻有时重，有时深刻有时弥漫；深深刻进骨里，弥漫重重漫出心灵。

天秤和双子都是容易受伤的人，特别是在爱情里，他们每个人都承受着累累的伤。而且无论是双子还是天秤都容易被人误解。

特别是双子男和天秤女，一个花心一个随性，但是其实从骨子里他们都是最痴情的。只是他们一直不愿放弃一份完美的爱情，他们在人群中寻觅。所以你们说他们花心她们随性，可是他们的的确确是人群中最执着的了。他们执着于那份完美的爱情，那份现实中可遇而不可求的完美的爱情，那是份来自生命底处的信念。

他们是不太专注于一个人，那是因为你不是他们生命中最后要找的人。所以，你不要急于责怪他们，静下心来想一想，然后衷心的祝福他们的。光是坚持这份信念，他们就要在爱情中吃很多的苦，受很多的伤，承受很多的误解，甚至唾骂。是他们不计较吗？不是，他们只是忍住了伤，把痛埋在了心底，在无人的时候自己一个人舔拭伤口；是他们麻木吗？那更是天大的笑话，天底下没有比他们更敏感，更纤细的心灵了。

但是为了生命里的信念，这一切他们统统都可以忽略不计。

天秤女喜欢撒一些小谎，特别是在公共场合，他们喜欢装得开朗大方。但是这一切都逃不过双子男的眼睛，不，应该是逃不过双子男的心。双子几乎凭直觉，凭空气中的流动的气息就可以看到那一个通通透透的天秤了。在双子男眼里天秤女满身都是忧伤。也正是因为这样在天秤面前双子是格外宽容的，他们从来不会揭开天秤的面纱，他们或者只是安静的看着天秤八面玲珑的应酬着，格外夸张的灿烂的笑着；或者他们会帮天秤演着戏，圆上谎，等到人观众都走光了。

为什么说天秤女是双子男身上被拆起的那一条肋骨呢？他们凭什么合拍，这么贴切呢？因为他们拥有同一种来自宿命的疼痛。双子和天秤都是容易受伤的，他们的心都太纤细、太敏感，而他们都又太痴情，太执着，于是他们的身上背负着太多的伤，太多的痛。但那都不是他们最真，最深刻的痛

双子最真、最深刻的痛是来自上帝血淋淋的把天秤从双子身

上折断撕裂开来时的那种痛。那种痛，被他们以后的生命里太多的痛覆盖，有时候连他们自己都忘却了，都分不清了。但是从若干年后，当他们因为寻找彼此而伤痕累累的重逢在在人群中时，他们忽然都一阵彻骨的痛，一个对视就让他们认出了彼此。

由于太多的伤，太多的痛，似乎把他们本该是最真、最深刻的痛都模糊了，都拉得很长了，都若有若无了。他们中也有的人倦了，认命的躺下了。这一点我也并不能太苛求，因为天下有那么多的双子，那么多的天秤，肋骨和亚当却是一对一的，让他们自己认清谁是谁的谁真的不容易。但是对于大多数的他们来说那种痛迟早是要爆发的。

可是双子的痛和天秤的痛又不是一模一样的，双子是亚当，虽然被拆去一根肋骨，但他毕竟还是一个整体，他的心毕竟还有肌肉，皮肤的保护。所以他们的痛永远只在心里，也不是时时刻刻都痛着他的，有时候也可以很长一段时间忘却自己生命中还存在那样的痛，但是他们不知道会在什么时候忽然忆起那种痛，每次忆起时那都会是刻骨的痛。所以双子在受伤时总能很快忘记，很快的高兴起来，所以双子的朋友不用给他太多的安慰。但是不知在某一个时候双子格外的忧伤，格外的痛苦时，已经没有人知道他是为着某一时刻的某一次伤痛了。

而天秤女不同，他们被拆开后，只是一根孤单的骨头，孤单得什么依靠也没有，而且他们完全暴露在日晒雨淋里，什么保护也没有，任何一点点侵害对他们都是刻到骨头里的。他们要保护自己只有痛上加痛，用痛来遮拦痛。

所以天秤很依恋，每一次恋爱她们都以为回家了，可以一辈子了，但换来的多是伤痛。而受伤后的天秤，总是装着很开心，很快乐，越是伤心看起来笑得越是灿烂。但是那她们都是装出来，她们不同于双子，双子的开心和伤心都是真直切切的，只是不知道什么时候发作。而天秤的从来没有真正的快乐过，从来都不可能忘记一点点的伤痛。她们是伤和痛的堆加体，她们的伤痛很绵厚，很悠长，但外表却很坚硬。所以他们看起来很快乐，很为灿烂。直到有一天属于她的双子在人群中发现了他，顿时他们彼此都泪水花了眼眸。

G.I.R.L

girls are unpredictable...

but yet..

made myself clear..

i'm much better, if i'm a guy

i'd be more free, if i could let it go..

be myself, starts questioning 'who i am'

i'm a girl.. still, i am

free myself from any expectation

Lord oh Lord,

i see U but never understand U

likewise

i see the doubts but i questioned for those doubts

i'm a girl.. still, a girl..

mumu

G. H. R. R. R. R. R

sabar....!!! sabar...!!!

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:'(

counting down. 1.5

read back our old conversation.. i feel, funny.. haha.. i'm sorry... OH My God, i just want to say... i'm so in love with you, especially when you change your mind, giving in more to me; when you flash a smile next day after my overwhelmed night; when you telling me a bts, which apparently is not a bts; when you nag with me, like a small kid; when you lull me into sleep, with negaraku; just less than 24 hours time.. hehe.. miss you miss you =)

no, que??

i feel that.. i need privacy.. i have plenty time to stare at the screen, but nothing came across when i start a word.. privacy, only for 1, 2, 3.. as minute as that.. no one could give a hand, i'm super duper emotional now!!! just ask, if 'no', why so?? if 'no', why after?? if 'no', who am i??

我怀念的

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

Life

Life is an Adventure ... Dare it
Life is a Beauty ... Praise it
Life is a Challenge ... Meet it
Life is a Duty ... Perform it
Life is a Love ... Enjoy it
Life is a Tragedy ... Face it
Life is a Struggle ... Fight it
Life is a Promise ... Fulfill it
Life is a Game ... Play it
Life is a Gift ... Accept it
Life is a Journey ... Complete it
Life is a Mystery ... Unfold it
Life is a Goal ... Achieve it
Life is an Opportunity ... Take it
Life is a Puzzle ... Solve it
Life is a Song ... Sing it
Life is a Sorrow ... Overcome it
Life is a Spirit ... Realize it

e.x.a.m... sigh~~

everyone must have this kinda feeling before..

what the hell... EXAM!!!!

no one would say, I LOVE EXAM =)

instead

ghhrrrr...... I HATE EXAM!!

remember when we were in kinder, mummy would yelled at us telling there is exam 2mr

we likely will responded back

"ma, what is exam"

when we moving in to standard 1, standard 2

we started to understand..

what exam is..

ngmmm... likewise...

you will get candy if you scribbled well on a piece of paper =)

OR

you will get a "rotan", if your luck is missed by 50%

when we grown up..

exam kept haunting us

we must do well in UPSR in order to scrub in a well-known SEKOLAH MENENGAH KEBANGSAAN

(whoopsss, sorry i was educated in malay school)

.... sigh....

we must do well in SPM, or STPM in order to FIGHT for a place in LOCAL UNI

the process repeating again and again..

until, we surrendered

we screwed our paper

we screwed everything

because

we know that there is no cane or no bail if we failed our paper

ended up, we went for private uni

we felt ashamed this time

and

we start to study hard, study smart

year 1, we scored well

year 2, results dropped due to temptation from outside world

year 3, who cares~

year 4, oh my god, is time to push myself harder

is only a year to get my cert i hand..

and now

the time is less than 24 hours for my last paper

i'm still sticking my butts and hands to my laptop

to crap for my exam..

sigh~~~

well, just hope everyone could did well for all the papers

tilt up our head and walk into the hall of fame PROUDLY

though we still have one more semester to bear about

but

still i cross my fingers

for the previous papersss

which is damn teruk

sigh~~

sigh~~

sigh~~

stop..!!

you should start studying now!!!

bye guys....!!!

all the best for cp^^

63^^

what so special about 63??? hmmm.. let me explain to u...

why 63??? cuz.. i wan

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63 seconds in a count
63 minutes in an hour
63 hours in a day
63 days for the next paper
or...
shot down 63 lectures in a day!! phewww... tats overall man!!
if doesn't work!! how about....
63 eyes
63 brain
63 hands
63 legs
or
63 mouth
you would like to ask me SHUT UP then
perhaps....
63 pairs of new sandals, new bags, new baju~~
63 bla and bla and bla~~
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feel like want to slap me??
63 gold bricks
oh no~~
or
63 white gold bricks
nope.. you are wrong..
women preferr DIAMONDS~~
63 diamonds,
... ruby
.... sapphires
.... emeralds
.... pearlssSSS
OH NO...!!! you wouldn't understand all these craps...
but.. you know what's 63 stands for =)

lost. in. wonderland.

where where where??
where are you?
i couldn't get you, through out the days and nights..
been searching, for quite some time..
i'm lethargic =(
where have you been?
how have you been?
the place ain't small..
the time ain't short..
for how long still..
the game
of
hide and seek?
a message
for u
u
u
the only U
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i need you =)

FARM FARM

Gud morning peeps=) seems like i'm coming back to world of blogging.. hiakhiak~ what actually i were busy for recently? hectic semester ahead.. clinical attachment (Ms Tang which is ultimately 'adorable'), loaded with assignmentSsss & presentation, exam exam exam~ it will never ends.. whoopsss, it's my second last finals, i'm gonna grad soon..!!! oh yea, my daily routine is likely waking up early morning (i'm a gud student har), or maybe middle of the nite (you must be thinking that i'm psycho, for being soooooooo hardworking)... brush up myself, sitting in front my laptop likewise what i'm doing now, nope blogging but to... CHECK MY FARM!! hah~ yes! i'm psycho but hectic class and notes drive me crazy at times.. i'm addicted to facebook game, a KIDO games.. haha.. oh yea, its time to check my farm, the daisy is ready for me to harvest.. chao guyss... have a nice week-day ahead!!!

question or answer?

specially dedicated for my dear dear dearly~~

dearest number 1: splendid life with a k-'bf', is it so called perfect or to fill the emptiness??

dearest number 2: caring or loving?? companion or life-long??

dearest number 3: chat or sleep?? joys or sorrows??

hide & seek

i'm gonna hide.. hide.. and hide..... again~

jus wana tell..

i'm a ordinary girl, with extraordinar.......

de...

something~~

dissolved. path.

hello~~~ hello~~~ anyone at home??? huh????

you are back.. here =) welcome friend!!!!

walking back to the path taken, what i saw is... dried leaves and footprints.. memories memories~~ that we had, jolly and sorrows that swept as time fly, love and hatred that buried underneath each of my breathing.. what i wish for is not i want, what i want now is what im looking forward.. i am fine, at last... regrets mingling around, and yet i keep on lying to myself, "yes, remaining.. still" what the hell?? gimme a damn please..

is that the road not taken?? nope.. i'm smiling, you are here.. back again.. but not for me, not for yourself, but for nobody..

fall. ___

apparently... i missss....

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hospital's food ain't sux... :p

happy studying

yeah yeah~~ finally gonna say gudbye to the 2weeks of suffers=) its gonna end in another 19hours more...!!! happy happy~~~ i'm gonna back to my home sweet home, hug my cute cute doogies, kiss my lovely parents..!! whoopssyy~~ hehe... go study natasha..!!! study hard for a better 2mr, clinical pharmacy only wat, who cares? lol.. happy studying~~ muaxx!!!